Sridriwina Suriyana

Long Lost BF

2010-04-20T18:03:00.001+08:00

Ritz is back.

And i m lost. I shall nt lie to myself. He's always in my heart all along.

I ve my private time w him ystetday. I miss him. We hugged and I told him how much I ve been yearning his presence in my life ever since he left ... I couldnt control my emotion tat I just cry in his hug. Even told him nvr to leave me again. I dun know how i gt the courage to tell him all tat, bt i guess

... I realised he is the only one for me.

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Hanya kamu

2010-04-08T06:58:00.001+08:00

YaAllah.

Mengapa payah untuk aku melupakan nya? Mengapa kau Temukan aku bersama dia lagi? Mengapa kau memberikan dia keistimewaan yang membuat aku ketawa , gembira dan senyuman yang sekian lama tidak aku rasai...

Adakah dia tercipta untukku? Mungkinkah dugaan yang aku alami selama ini adalah cubaan yang aku harus lalui sebelum mencapai kebahagiaan?

Sesungguhnya kau lah yang maha mengetahui semua isi hatiku. Hamba mu ini masih berdoa dan berharap yang terbaik buat hidupku...

YaAllah...

Sejujurnya, aku mengaku sehingga kini aku terlalu menyayangi dirinya
Setelah sekian lama, ketawa riang yang aku anggap lenyap dalam hidupku kembali lagi...

Aku hanyut dalam pelukan dia... Walau hati sering disakitti olehnya. Airmata ini tidak dapat disekat lagi. Tubuhku kaku, hanya satu aku tahu...

YaAllah. Aku terlalu merinduinya...

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Updates Blogging via Iphone

2010-03-17T08:58:00.000+08:00

This is my first time trying out blogger tru my iphone. Aint that fun coz I need more time to type such a short entry.

Some rough updates, random
Ones. Ive conquer the Island of Bali. And I m returning there again on July to meet my kekasih gelapku, Pasek ! Hahaha nola! Going over there w my buaya junior this time. 6 days over there. I relli dun know what to expect over there for almost a week. Surely am aint goin to look at Pasek's face all the way kan! Siao! Whatever it is, I can't wait to go Bali again.

And so, am heading to Hong Kong this May first. W my sis, nt only 4 days. We plan to go the Ocean Park and of coz the Disneyland. I dun want to judge how much am going to spend over there. Trying not to even though I know am going to be tempted w their clothings over there. Another 2 months, am
Off for another holiday. Wow! Like strike lottery ah! Ya Ryte! Am just enjoying the last few years of my singlehood.

Talking about singlehood, Ive finally make my stand by not lying to myself. Enjoy as much as I can. The Mr. is doing good. He had finally pay his bike monthly w his part time pay, and he can handle his own petrol money without my help. In other hand am free to use my money w my stuffs. Aint tat great though. I didnt get anithing for valentine or my birthday. Ohh well. Wat can I ask for. Least he is truthful enuh. Unlike me ;) - all coz I ve been flirting w my Bali driver, Pasek.

Sememangnye aku hanya test market only mah! Mane aku tau buaya pencen ni masih laku lagi! Hahaha bt he's cute laa! Emangnya kamu cukup ganteng bagi aku. With him calling me 'Cinta' makes me feel like in cloud9. Hahaha

Orh! Buaya BBQ Birthday Bash is over last week! Had great fun w my buayas! Realli miss the time we used to have years ago! Didnt i realise tat its been years! Though we rarely meet the giler giler mentel chemistry brains still available whenever we meet up! Watever it is, aku miss masa kite dulu dulu. Sitting at west coast park water breaker melalak same same. Ketawe kekek kekek. Swim pagi2 kt Pulau Bukom. Makan at Clementi road. Mee kuah. Prata Cheese. Maggi goreng. Haiz

Oh well, am already at redhill MRT, been typing from Payar Lebar. Am posting this now cause there's network!

Till then slamat pagi! And good nite coz am going home to sleep! Happy 35th Birthday Ayg! Pls earn more money! U gt to pay 10k plus 1 LV handbag to my parents u know!

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Hello 2010

2010-01-06T08:52:00.003+08:00

This shall be the first entry of the 2010.
And I had no idea when am going to post more entry ever again.
I ve lost touch of blogging due to Boredom.
It's either I close down this blog.
Delete all my memories of the past years.

Life's good so far.
In recall of the 2009.
2009 marks the beginning of the new me.
I ve begin to settle down with 1 person. *like duh*
The another Shah and the A is happily married to their choice.
I lost touch with the Mr African Twin.
Career wise, good. The secret recipe *BBC* relli works.
I ve spend a lot of money this year.
Lose a lot of weight. Currently UK Size 12. good!

Hopes for the year 2010.
Quickly get my 2a license. Get my super4.
Save money *ehem*
Save more money for London - Paris Trip on Oct.
Make up my mind on certain matters.
Earn another rank up in my career.
Lose more weight!
Stop cutting my hair and hair coloring cause I dun
want animore split ends.
Stop touching on the 'C' ever again.
More ladylike; wear more skirt; dress and dress up
(this part is due to the Mr. He told me so)

... so finally!
be HAPPY

orh. I did gt the Iphone. I remembered it was in one of the
wanted list of my choice. My Xperia phone still available
though. Too sayang to sell it off cause it's my last year
bonus money! hard earned. While this bloody Iphone is just
0 dollars cause I upgrade my plan. Hmph! worthless.

Orh Well...

So yea. till the next post!
ciao!

On Long Holiday

2009-10-17T04:43:00.002+08:00

Despite the long holidays I have very packed schedule tru' out
my weekends. Last 2 weeks was raya with Bfs' Side.
Almost 6 houses plus 1 open house at Deen's Place at Sengkang.
Bfs Mum was ok. Pretty Loud Person I can say.
Interrogation was carried out as usual. Errr
But His Mak Long was nice to me. Very. Weird.

Last Week was with Bfs' Bikers Frendz.
We took a lot of photo but none of which are in my possession
coz I forgot to take camera with me.

Bikers raya outing was the worst
and the tiring one I had.
Convoy of 11 bikes plus 3 cars. 1 van. I lorry.
A total of 10 houses. My butt hurts. My leg cramp.
All coz we ride. It was lucky that I wore pants.

Holiday to Genting-KL was good. Stomach fully satisfied.
And Now back to my dieting.
Weather at Genting was superb cold.
I love the mist in the morning. Though it almost
make my cheeks half frozen. I love the freshness of
morning breeze blowing on my cheeks.
This time I climb all the way in the theme park.
I took more rides. But have yet to pluck the courage to
ride on THE DROP. I treasure my life dok!
Like summone ever said...

"tidakkkk! aku blom kahwin no no no!"

Breakfast was good. Lunch Dinner and supper.
Damn I think I put on 3 kilos or more.
All cravings done. Kenny Rogers. Mary Brown.
A&W. Chicken Rice Shop.

I didnt shop much like before. Bought 2 watches and
3 spec for Bf. 1 Chanel Bag for myself. 2 tops . and
1 hard rock tee.
Orh! I m so proud of myself coz at KL I only took 1 taxi
ride and the rest is by public or walking.
The taxi ride is to Masjid India. From there, I walked to
Central Market. Petaling St. and Back to Federal Hotel.

Orh wait! Just in case if ur to read this, Inaaa please
no more Federal Hotel on our next trip. *if there is!*
or if so, please nt to get my level. Coz I find something
'fishy' with the room that I stayed.
Told bf about it and indeed. My guilt feeling is right!

I realize that my mind is off better over there.
Once am back to SG. arghh... Life is never the same again.
Work Sucks. Too much politics going on.
Too many hypocrites! I hate the feeling.
Works doesnt seems like a fun place ani more with
people like this. I miss my old team delta.
Now it's just work done and home. New recruits in.
They are so the attitude. Orh this one guy is
kinna cute. 24 dok! But he's at t3. Gee! he's hot!
Ok behave senior! hehehe ....

and so Yah ~
I dun feel the urged to write at times.
It's so boring. Blogger can go haywire at times.
So 1 more day and I am back to work on Sunday.
Haiz. I got bf's family event later. Gotta present
oready at Metro Sales earlier on. All wrapped up
with Bf and me. On small matters also can argue.
Dunoe if we are riding or driving there... we'll see.

ok so good night. Am going to get my beauty sleep.

Yang Tersurat...

2009-09-29T18:14:00.002+08:00

Pertemuan buat terakhir buat aku dan dirimu
Maafkan aku ...
Walau tidak dapat ku ungkapkan
Walau berat hati ini untuk merelakan
Namun semua nya akan berakhir
Kau dengan hidupmu, Aku dengan hidupku
Persahabatan yang terjalin,
Bermula nya 7 tahun yang lalu
Akan aku simpan dalam hatiku buat
Kenangan Indah sisa-sisa aku bersamamu.
Tak payah kata-kata perpisahan
Kerana aku dan kamu tidak pernah
Mulanya perhubungan.
Jangan kau hirau kan tangisanku
Jangan kau tangisi keputusan itu,
Bagiku kau anugerah terindah dalam hidupku.
Mungkin inilah takdir
Takdir yang menyatukan kita dan tikdir
Juga yang menentukan bahawa kita tidak akan
Bersama...

Cukuplah dakapan dan kucupan terakhir
Yang kau berikan...
Tanda perpisahan
Tidak tertahan airmata ini,
Namum doaku hanya padamu...

Kerana aku berjanji, Langkah terakhir ku.
Adalah noktah buat kita...
Dan memulakan hidup baru buat mu
Berjanji lah padaku kau tidak akan
mengingatiku lagi...

Selamat Pengantin Baru aku ucapkan
Agar kekal Hingga ke anak cucu....
Maafkan aku, aku tidak sanggup datang ke
persandingan mu...

Raya 2009

2009-09-22T01:08:00.003+08:00

Firstly I would like to shout out that I hate durian!
I had accidently put in a piece of Kueh Lapis Durian in my
mouth. Trying not to dissapoint my colleague who had offerred
me home baked Kueh Lapis I was forced to swollow the Cake.
With another piece of Brownie in my mouth. Yucks it taste awful.
Now I feel Sick. Really Feel like vommiting. Apart from Sleepy
of coz.

2nd Day raya. House was under-attacked with mum's family.
I was still asleep. Trying to as am on night shift.
However the noise level was too loud that I was woken up
at around 11am. Pretty early for a sleep of night shift.
Which explained my extra sleepyness RIGHT NOW!

I took time off today. Am tired still. Went for house visiting
and came home around 6pm. Managed to laze around in bed but didnt
get to nap. Ayg called to inform that he will be sending me to
work. Since it's pretty early we decide to laze around at East Coast.
He did all the talking while I managed to close my eyes a while.

Things didnt work out as how we expected it to be.
Slight arguement on the first day which I choose
not to disclose it. Pretty pissed off. So be it ...

Right and so ... pictures galore!

Wahla! Done! I so like those kids!
HAHA kecoh! p.s: kalau da jodo takkan kemana...

Akhir Ramadhan. Bermula Syawal

2009-09-19T13:23:00.002+08:00

Wishing all Muslim Friends,

Selamat Hari Raya AidilFitri.

Maaf jika tersalah Cakap. Tersalah Tudoh.
Tersalah Tafsir. Tersalah Anggap.
Tersalah Makan. Tersalah Tersalah yang
Sewaktu Dengannya.

To my Buayas,
Inaaa and Wawa
Maaf kan daku *tune maafkan kami - ost bujang lapok*
Jika pernah tersinggung perasaan kalian
ketika bergurau-gurauan.
Selamat Mengemok kan diri Di Hari Raya.
I love u both bebeh!

Orh to Kakak Buaya Also.
Slamat Hari Raya kak!

Maaf Zahir Batin Ye!

Cepat2 la invite Ana makan nasi briyani dum!
Awaiting for open house. Nak makan ur cooking.

Orh Well So many things gonaa happen this Syawal.
Weddings.
Jalan Raya Outings.
My Run-away 1 week Trip to KL.
and more to come.

Till then.
Take care.
I m at work. Going off soon.
Gotta change my bedsheet. Change the curtains.
Mine room and the hall curtains.
Iron my baju perhaps.
Damn It's tiring.
Orh! Havent get ready money for budak budak!
There goes my dollars. I wish I got angpau still.

ok! Enjoy the holidays!
Ayg Fetching me soon.
So that I can reach home and do my housework!

p.s: Yessshaaaa! this month full puasa again!
Butterflies in the stomach for this Raya.

Blogger Sucks

2009-09-13T17:43:00.000+08:00

Simply hating blogger these days. The interface kept giving me problem
even though I tried to upload my entries tru mozilla or explorer.
Irritating to the core.

Dun blame me for not updating. Pior to my extra busy with work and
going-out schedule and also dun bothered-to-on laptop atitude.

Night shift later. Old people going out and new peeps in. Sians.
1 more week to Hari Raya. Fasting is a breeze this year. Aint a
problem for me cause I get to diet.

My off-white baju for this year is great, except I need to alter again.
Extra longgar. No nice at all. I end up buying another top at bazaar geylang.
Which is pretty cheap. But the non-stop-hits from Ayg telling me that
it's a waste of money cause I be working and not going out on Raya.

I had not been spending time at kitchen lately.
Only yesterday I managed to finish 1 type of cookie for raya.
White choc Cornflakes especially for inaaa and Choc Cornlakes.
I went to NTUC to buy another small box of cornflakes cause I
find it too little this time. I dun think like doing animore
cookie. But I feel like baking brownie. Cut it to small cubes
and put it on the paper cups. I will see hoe issit.

Facial on Tuesday night off. Wed and thurs afternoon shift.
I Guess I wont be doing anithing to my hair this year.
Unless the change of mood on Friday off Day.

I didnt get any heels as well for this year, though I tot I
might want to. Went to Jurong point yesterday with Ayg,
But none of the wedding heels type doesnt have my size.
I gave up and we went jalan-jalan with no motive instead.
Ayg pulled me to SK Jewellery and he pointed out this
diamond ring which cost $600 plus for a half carat diamond.
Ermm... Ya ryte. Also point out a simple wedding band for
like $299.

Ayg mentioned "diamond ni kecik nah ah I rasa, ur mum mesti
bising nye. Argghh botak la kepale I kalau nak besar nye
diamond!"

Hahaha ... kecian. I simply refuse to say anithing and
pull him out of the shop.

Sesungguhnya die da tebiat. Paiseh nye aku!

Hello & Bye

2009-08-29T02:57:00.002+08:00

Currently in the office again. On night shift.
I still cant update my blog at home. I realli got no idea why.
I feel like closing blogger account and just move to another
blogging website like livejournal or something. But Livejournal
is damn irritating. Stupid Coding. I hate it. Others I ve yet to
check out. After which am going to close this blog, which I ve
been writing for the past years. hmm...

Simply dun like my life now.
Big problem arise one after another. Am getting sick of it.

But at least I m glad I ve him to pour all my problem on.
Partly he's my problem too. Main topic for this Coming Hari Raya.

It's the coming of our 3rd month anniversary this coming 4th Sept.
By Hari Raya it's our 5th Month. I ve no idea why but this is
so suffering. I am keeping all my misery, never I realise that
this could be a huge problem for me. My situation aint like my other
girlfriendz. I wish my parent are much more open in accepting that
am going out with him. And to at least respect my privacy.
But I m dissapointed that they dun.

I managed to tell dear about this.
He wished to end all my misery.
InsyaAllah by this Raya.
But it's all now up to me to decide and say yes or no to it.
Dear had already told me that he wishes to bring me to
meet his mum. Break Fast together at his mum's place.
But am reluctant. I dun knoe. I m so lost now.

Partly I dun like my parents to be that controlling to
my personal life. I wish I ve mum who's much more open
in accepting what am going tru right now and not to accuse
her daughter this and that assuming that her daughter is
like those who she saw and read on the news. Simply
dissapointed. I dun know what to say. I tot I ve a perfect
family but I guess I dun exactly.

I m sorry. But this relationship which I tot might last to
eternity aint going that good for now. Part of my heart
wish to end this. Perhaps that's wat my parents wants.
Simply dissapointing. I dunoe... haiz ~
I will never get my happy ending if this goes on.

I really not looking for Raya this year.
I dun ...

p.s: I still feel the soar in the eye but my heart soar the most.

Forever

2009-08-24T02:29:00.000+08:00

It's coming to the 3rd of Ramadhan.
A breeze so far coz it's like a dieting plan for me.
Currently updating this at home. Finally I see the
whole of the interface slightly form up so that I can
at least type out something and where to click.

Took 1 day leave on the previous night shift to rest.
Spend the time at home and rest and fasting at home for
the first day. Weather was cooling and raining these few
days. It's good but am worried as well cause Ayg is riding.
His new bike is much more comfortable though but the
maintainability is slightly more of us.

A day before yesterday, Ayg and I had a slight quarrel over
a few pictures of this girl on his phone. I was scrolling
the pictures on MY phone that he's currently using and
found those picture. I then refuse to talk to him at all
tru' out the day... Simply pissed off... Want it or not
he explained everything to me. Better be right this time
or else tiada maaf bagimu...

Visited bazar geylang after aftenoon shift yesterday.
Wasnt that grand but lots of mat moto with their minahs.
Even to park our bike is a problem. Reason for us to
drop over there is for the dengdeng, keropok lekoh and
Cheese hotdog. Walk around a while and proceed to the
food stall. Clothing for this year is the same. Not much
difference. Am waiting for my baju to be ready soon.
I wondered hoe it will turn out. White for us this year.
Aint much to buy I guess. But I think I might need a new
pair of heels and also handbags. Ayg was ya ya ya -ing
at me when I told him that. Right ...

Orh well. gotta sleep. Ayg sleep oready. I got a msg from
him before he slept ...

"... i hope we'll be together forever"

which I answered back

"InsyaAllah. kalau jodoh tak kemana"

Which I really meant that.
Guess he's the One.

BlaBlaBla

2009-08-18T09:33:00.002+08:00

Back after 2 weeks from my previous entry.
I cant seems to update my blog cause the interface of the screen
go haywire whenever the upate blogger is open on my lappy.
Ive yet to try it at my comp but am currenly updating this at
my werk office.

Pretty sian with work~. First morning and bla bla bla from OIC.
I really feel like finding another alternative job. Perhaps I
shuld just apply ICA or ask for internal transfer. That's all
for work wise. I choose to just shuddup, do my work and go home.
Argh!

Activity wise, pretty the same old thing happening. Monday bowl
league at B.B. Movies here and there once a while, meet ups with
friends for dinner and of coz spending time together. Too much of
Financial problem arise these days. Am relli so lost. Am trying to
hold on for now. Least am happy.

Orh. Our 2nd hand Super4 is out officially yesterday. Am so not used
to us riding the bike. I got too much space to sit. HaHa... Bike
workshop still own us a few stuffs. Mean Time Ive left my helmet in
his helmet box. Save my trouble to bring helmet here and there and of
coz he can pick me up anitime anywhere.

Guess Fasting month is coming. So, I guess we would be spending less
time together until Hari Raya itself. Oh no! Hari Raya! butterflies in
stomach. argh!

Ok my updates. back to do my work.
Arggh! I need hug.

p.s: I miss my buayas badly :(

2nd Month

2009-08-04T17:14:00.001+08:00

Happy 2nd Month Anniversary to us.

Though it's just 2 months, but it doesnt seems like.
I guess due to the fact that we met almost everyday.
Either I drive or he ride.

Right!

Abg fetched me from home after his work yesterday.
We got bowling tournament to go to for every Monday.
Went over to his place and waited for him to change
and get his bowling kit. Was watching tv and seeing
the aquarium and he gave me box. It's a shoe. Aint
worn yet he said.

Didnt I know until I asked him the most dump
question for the day which is who it belongs to.

Sememangnye aku bodoh. It's kasut barang
hantaran buat arwah tunang dia... errr ok my
fault again.

So aniway,

Bravo to all the bowlers u people are great!
After the tournament, as usual me and abg and his brother
E-one continue bowling. E-one is just 1 yr older
than me. Least he's a better coach compared to his
brother. Hahaha...

What shall I say more?

Night shift later. and another shift tomm.
Abg will fetch me home after 2nd night shift.
Dropping by bike workshop a while I guess and ...

Am waiting for our Super4 really soon!
HAHAHA

I love you dear!

Perhaps Perhaps Perhaps

2009-08-02T11:56:00.002+08:00

Currently playing with 'bubble' at work.
Sleepy to the core. I hate morning shift. 3 hours of
sleep. And it's a freaking Sunday.
Everyone's asleep while I'm at work.
Blogger at home or Lappy sucks. The interface goes
all over, resulting me to unable to update my damn
blog at home... Truly membingit-kan.

Orh! Work Dinner Makan Makan With my Favourite TeamDelta
is a blast! I like to the core. Took Time off Just for it.
This time I bought abg down to meet my colleague.
Am happy that he can get along well with those guys
despite us having to separate table due to the massive
crowd at Seoul Garden. After which Fai n Gf . my both
brothers went to Clarke Quay for a drink and chit chat.
It's been a while since am updated about the team. I miss
them so much. Now abg noes why am so attached to that
team.

Yesterday, was my off day. Had to bring car to Inspection
centre at B.B. Luckly I was oready oriented with B.B before
this, so finding the place isnt a problem... After which
Went to Giant and send home my parents with their stuffs.
Fetch Abg at B.B and drove to Ubi to check out our bike.
We've downpayment our ride. Hopefully it be out soon.
Am attracted by this particular Peugeot fly 150cc bike.
Almost like the Gilera ST200 but just a smaller cc. After
calculation monthly it's only $115 after $600 downpayment.
Abg mentioned that perhaps I can get that bike but hmmm I
dunnoe yet coz I really wanna get my own super4. Orh! btw,
our new ride will be Super4. After bargaining, we got a
free box and 2 new helmets. We decide to do a sticker for
that. How sweet! HHAHAHA ....

Once done with all the sweaty part. Went over to Arnolds to
had our late lunch and Sim Lim Sq to get some Pc parts.
By 6.30pm we are already set at Marina Barrage to catch
the fireworks. Easy - exit parking, truly nice view.
But it was dissapointing cause I strongly
thinks that this year final ndp09 preview fireworks is
such a budget one. I like the heart shape fireworks though.
Also we strongly dislike Singaporean who cant sit down while
watching the fireworks, despite them standing in front of us!
Ergh! irritating.

Orh well. Pic will be up when I can upload those pictures of
Abg and Me.

So like it or not. I guess this is it... InsyaAllah. Shall
wait for the next 2 years to come.

Ok back to work. Passenger's in. Abg fetching me from work,
going to Busu's place to fix her pc. Am smelling her Laksa
goreng oready! Weeee!

Am Loving It!

2009-07-26T10:45:00.002+08:00

Simply love my days. With U by my Side.
Am never sad. Though am tired nagging and being
your Little Miss Stubborn. And You my Mr Grumble,
Always give in to me. Am Looking forward for a
better brighter future for us.

Quality time was spend well with him. Whole of this
week, Everyday in fact. Simply so sweet...
Tuesday breakfast after my night shift.
Evening to Ikea Alexandra
Wednesday break.
Thursday bowling and supper @ AlAzhar.
Friday off day and off to CCK to the Prawn Fishing Farm.
Cool! I LIKE I LIKE I LIKE!

Saturday am in Morning shift. Abg fetched me home,
from work. and we zoom to Pasir Ris Farmway to see
Fish. Our new hobby. Freshwater Fish. We clean up the
Fish tank in his room and decided to keep fish in the
tank. Bought some tetras and some guppies. Different
spesis but all comes in pairs. Very Sweet.
There was one place which I cant remember the name of
the shop, they have the Kampung Like Place, where there's
chicken, Duck, Tortise. Goldfish. And KAMBING!
I can touch those kambing! Feed them with food.
HAHA... Abg said that am like budak budak over there.
I want to catch those fish using the the hand net and
bucket but abg said that the fish aint that nice.

Am so in love with Coral Reef Fishtank aka Seawater
Fish. Coz I like the Clown Fish and Dory Fish.
Simply remind me of Finding Nemo. Am staring at the
fish giving those sad face to abg the moment he said
that those fishes are hard to maintain. :( I want
Nemo abg! I want Dory also! I want to have my own
Coral Reef tank home.

Which he then promise to have our future home, my
very own coral reef fish tank with Nemo. HAHAHAHA

I am wanting to go to the zoo soon!
Which I told abg that I will plan with whoever
wanna go. Going as a group is much more fun than
we were to just go by ourselve.

His best one the year reply was:

"ah ah best... lagi best kalau kite bawak anak kite
nanti..."

My heart drop the moment I hear what he say.
Hahaha berangan la tu!

For Goodness Sake! Giler dok!

Orh Well
And today Sunday org bodo ajer keje!
Dan to Inaaa! Memang keje aku relek one corner.
Korang buat keje pass kat aku.
Tu pasal aku 'aiiiii ooooooo' officer!
HAHAH

I love my M.Shahril very much

Didnt Know

2009-07-21T03:51:00.002+08:00

Currently at work. No Flight. And Extremely Sleepy.
Though night shift is kinna relax but I am dead bored when
there's no one to talk to. New team sucks. Coz I dun have
poeple to talk to as well as the older team. At times I do
give up relli. If only I didnt get comfirmed ealier I would
have tried to apply other jobs and jump to another job
opportunity. Bingit I tell u!

I have been surfing the net and I feel like changing the whole
look of my room. I feel like painting my room black and red
like the one I saw at IKEA showroom. Dun ask me how I end up
at IKEA Tamp! Though it's kinna sweet. People tot that me
and him is a newly wed who's exited to get our house renovated
and so on! *smack head* Though there was some tots from him like

"Ayg, nanti kalau rumah KITE bla bla bla..."
"Boleh la ayg, kite ambik 4 room ajer..."

and replied from me

"Ah yelah tu"
"You tunggu la lagik 10 tahun. Tu pon KALAU lah"
"But eh! I nak tinggal Clem la."

Which he totally dun agree with me staying at Clem with my parents.
Lets say after the officially 'we-belong-together-thing', he would
like to have own house bla bla bla. Even plan everything out. Scary
I tell you. He would go on and on while I be sitting down looking
elsewhere, Looking at some hot guys or sometimes or just playing
bubbles staring at blank space.

It's pretty weird. Relli. He intro me to people, his friends as his
future ~~Wife~~ And the period given was 2 - 3 yrs time! Gila kan!!!
Bwwrrghh!

I've a tiring time at his place. While watching APM and Cleaning up his
room and junks, throw his unused clothings and etc.
Upon Throwing all his stuffs, I took out a whole big box of stuffs.
I took out the stuffs and pass it to him coz all the items are new
still nicely packed in packaging. Then there was silence all of a
sudden.

"... ni semua barang hantaran I dulu"

*gulp*

I dunoe wat more to say. I just do my work.
Suddenly I feel so shitty for doing the wrong thing at the wrong time.
Didnt feel so awkward as this before.
Luckly he didnt drag much. He took out those items, meddle with it, unwrapped
those items and throw away the packaging...

"takper la, I pakai ajer benda ni. Wallet I pon pon kena tukar"

*phew* Orh Well... hmmm

Orh Ya. APM 09' Sucks to the core.
Nasib nvr waste money on going to Jakarta to catch the show Live.
Apart from the twin bombing at Jakarta Hotels.
The show is very boring.
My Taufik Batisah didnt win much. Only 1.
Out of the 3 votes I ve given for him. Blooddyyy $3.00 gone.
But still Taufik's appearance on TV makes me go gila until
the one deep staring from b. Tak pasal-pasal budak bingit ngan
aku. ST12 vocalist was very cute. I like his goyang goyang of
hips when he sang cari pacar lagi. Sungguh cute. If Taufik goyang
mcam gitu aku da pengsan da siang siang. HAHA ...

Argghh this night shift is the most sleepy night shift ever.
I didnt get much sleep coz of the Sunday Wedding held under my
block. Apart from that I came home only after lunch send by b.
He's was like

him: Eh ader keje kahwin...
me: Ah kenape u nak kahwin..
him: Ok ah dengan u per!
me: Tgu la u 10 tahun lagik
him: Lambat nah!?
me: Nak cepat p cari pompuan lain!
him: Tak nak. nak u ajer.
me: Ah then tgu ah
him: Jgn lambat nah!
me: ah ok. Then siap duit hantaran my parent mintak.
him: Ok Set! my kawan-kawan semua da tanye, dorang tak sabar nak escort. from JW to sini rase ok ok ah. Sini ajer eh carpark yang dekat?
me: *stare at him hard hard* woink! jauh nah berangan! sape nak sanding!
him: kite la. U ngan I!
me: No! tak nak sanding!
him: Kena jugak! then uat ape ur parent mintak hantaran tinggi-tinggi.
me: Tahu plak my parent mintak tinggi. Tahu takper!
him: Ah kena sanding ah tu!
me: Ah berangan la u banyak-banyak. Da bye nak balik. jgn berangan bawak moto tu.

*smack head hard hard*
ARGHHH!!

Kusut

2009-07-17T04:33:00.002+08:00

*haiz*
Harry Porter was great! Sad ending though. But overall it's
good. Ron's character was damn cute. Prof Snape make my blood
boiled! So looking forward for the next one!

B today wore formal for me. Since we have plan this
date early. For first time ever, he wore his smart pants
and black long sleeve. Am so n Love with him.
Too bad we met late coz I have to wait for dad's car.
Or else we would have go for somewhere romantic for our
dinner. TCC @ Keppel Marina maybe. I was shocked cum
speechless when I saw him in those attire. Abg Smart abes.
While me in jean, sleeveless top w belt and heels. Hee...

After Harry Porter, we drove to ECP to take a stroll down
the beach. Conversation was okay at first till I asked him
something which totally change the romantic atmosphere.

*something something something*
Shall elaborate soon if am aint bz at work later.
p.s: am in morning shift. Check the time now.

The date last night was a meaningful one.
Ended with a hug, a few second stop kiss on my forehead and
a smile on our face...

~ right. Am so in love with my abg now. And yes.
I m ur baby abg...

Sampai Menutup Mata

2009-07-16T02:43:00.002+08:00

Have yet to sleep even though am home by 12.30am.
Initial plan was to go home after my noon shift since
b's bowling tournament ends at 10pm and I m not waiting
for him to fetch me home. So taking my own sweet time to
take MRT home. As per usual Msg b that am on the way home.
Halfway tru my journey b called, told me to meet him
at Bukit Batok, go for supper as he havent eaten yet.
Havent said so, we ve no idea where to eat thus ended
up at Bukit Timah, which explains how I meet Inaaa and bf!

"hah! sorry aku ngah membebel ngan die time atas moto
sampai la turon moto, die nonong jalan tinggal kan aku
teros dudok dlm... biasa gak kalau tkder gadoh tak sah.
Plus hp aku buat hal. Msg masok lembab! argh!"

Right! so am bored right now. Force b to sleep early
coz he better not be late for work again tomm.
See! how can I never nagged at him everyday...

Yea! Harry Porter later at evening!!! can't wait.
B said that am like budak budak ... *grrr*
Yah budak budak sampai kena mintak IC when buying cigarettes
at petrol station AGAIN!

Haiyah! aunty! I oready twenty *toot* ler!
I never bring wallet la aunty! Aunty still say No.
Kesian aku! hmph!
And all my dearest did was to laugh at me while
I walked away. citot betol :(

Otw home.

him: baby abg miss abg eh?
me: tak lah. ye ke ? where got!
him: baby abg ni, kenape degil ego sangat?
me: takder la!

Hmph! aku jugak.

Sleeping Disorder

2009-07-14T08:29:00.002+08:00

Am wide awake since 7.30am. I guess Ive enuh sleep
oready. Simply cant sleep anymore. I ve change my position
a couple of times, but have yet to get my eyes to close and
doze off. In the matter of fact, I actually came home and
slept rather late last nite. I wondered why.

Stomach damn pain, felt realli bloated after eating popeyes'
french fries on the 2nd night shift. Was trying to bear the
pain from work till home. Though I ve seats in the MRT from
city hall onwards but I cant seems to sit down peacefully.
Guess blame myself for not eating properly. B ve been nagging
at me to bring some taupao food from home for night shift
instead of munching on biscuits or drink soya bean or 100plus.
And of coz Ive ignore all his quek quek quek quek!
Luckly enuh, the pain subside after I woke up on my night off
yesterday. B msg the moment he's done with work and give me
a wake up call once he's home.

Bowling Tournament was great yesterday. The team done very well.
My fav bowler, Fadli got 6 strike consequently. Am so proud of
him. I ve never been so hyper watching someone bowl before. I
just believe he really got that skills! B said that I was reacting
very cheeky when it comes to Fadli's turn to bowl.

Nonsense la b!

Once the game is over, I join in the game with B and his brother
E-one. I lost the mood the moment he tried to guide me with my
footing. Guess ur lover cannot be your coach, especially with
someone so impatient like him. E-one was cute, selenger and cool.
We went to ve supper at Alif @ Gombak. I guess he feel awkward
having to call me Kak Ana, and we ended up talking with each
other as 'I' and 'U'. Till now, am just wondering where did I
ever see his face before. Hmmm scary. Even told b about this
and all he said was ...

"...ntah ntah you da pernah date ngan adik i tak? u mane lelaki
u tak pernah kluar with? u ckp ...!"

Right!? Ok fine! so the pandai answer.

Well...
Mum's nagging on who Ive been going out with these days.
Mum's suspected it's a guy coz I ve been bringing my helmet
out often too. I've told b about this and he told me to tell
the truth. I just rolled my eyes at him.

I guess I will give us more time and perhaps will bring him
over to meet my parents during Raya? HAHAH

ok gtg! gotta wake up b for work!
another additional task everyday!

"...it was hard in the first place but you have proven ur sincerity
tru out our relationship... Thank u b"

=)

2009-07-12T00:42:00.002+08:00

Simply shagged to the core. I think I ve been
going out too often and home very late almost everyday.
Dun asked me who or where or what. Coz I m simply very
forgetful these few days. I slept like a no tomorrow
yesterdy, back at home before I reported for Duty.
I guess both me and him is simply just too tired.

We ve been going out since Sunday. Non-stop hits.
Sunday to Vivo. Simpang Bedok to eat Mad Jack.
Mustapha Centre and AlAzhar all via dad's car.
Monday was Bowling Tournament at CDANS & Late night supper @ AlAzhar.
also via dad's car.
Wednesday was at his place. Coffee @ Bukit Batok.
also via dad's car.
Thursday Rest day for me.
Friday bowling at CDANS. Burger King at ECP. Prata @ Raffles.
also via dad's car.

Pheww! luckly dad no bising bising.

So tell me. Wats with us huh?
Bwwrrgghh!
Its a raining saturday.
So both of us were asleep.
At night am off to work while he's off to bowling with his
work mates again.

Meeting him of Monday again for Bowling Tournament @ CDANS.
Thursday will be our Movie date. Harry Porter!
Booked Ticket oready *jump jump jump*
In between no idea so far.
We ve been planning to go Karaoke since ^&#($ weeks ago.
Hey Buayas' Jom la! Plan Yok!?
Boring la korang!

Weather so nice.
I wish I can sleep.
Work sucks.
Lots of people are taking Urgent Leave and MCs.
I wish I do too. Wueek~

Fated I Suppose

2009-07-09T03:24:00.002+08:00

Check out the time, and am still not asleep yet.
It's my morning shift later and I m going to be dead at
work. Schedule pretty packed these days. Considered bz.

Lots of things ve happened. Truly a lot.
I guess I need to sort out my priority first.
Relationship between Mr MatB.B ve gone from the basic
to the intermediate level. Truly am dead...
Right so, been meeting him almost everyday since
Sunday. I guess we are going to take a break after
today.

Bowling friends. Younger Brothers & wife. Another brother.
and friends here and there.

First Bowling friends.

They: "...eh korang mcam luving couple. berkepit ajer"
His adik angkat. Who end up calling me kakak Ana.
Adik: "...ah sehati sejiwa kape minom pon same same"

Orh. This adik angkat of his really give us lots of
problem. Kecoh ni budak sorang. I really dunoe wat
more to say.

I dunnoe who else he wants me to meet but am so the
paiseh oready. Late night supper at Bukit timah with
his brother and wife ends up with us meeting his dad.
I dunoe where else to run but gotta face the reality.

The question was:

Dad: "...ni sape"
He: "kawan...baru ajer ni"
Brother & wife: "bakal kakak ipar ah~" *wife giggling*
He: "...InsyaAllah bapak. ni baru bagi kenal ngan dorang2(brothers) dulu"
*slapping my tights*
Dad: "Bagus lah tu..."

Me? Tersengeh mcam kerang busok. Oh Shit!
Mampuiii aku~. Hanya my buayas will noe hoe I feel at
that very moment. I choose to keep silence and Just Smile!
errr damn it.

Another scenario while we are talking about shopping

Brother's wife: "eh vivo ader sales, tadik Ju pergi..."
Me: "eh mane shop eh? semua?"
Brother's wife: "biasa ah the baju, Topshop Forever21 etc"
Me: *smile big big* at Mr MatB.B
Him: "da Ju, kau jgn nak bilang KAKAK ko ni ader die p shopping lagik"
*me kena cubit*
Me: "woink u tak baik!"

I swear am so uncomfortable when his brothers age 24 and 28 call me
"Kak Ana" ! damn I feel old. Arrghh! but they treat me superb well.
Friendly I can say. And I dont feel outcast cause they will always
go on saying AbgShah and Kak Ana this and that this and that.

So we go public just now.
Dinner & Shopping at Vivo.
Bought 2 tops at Forever21.
Both chosen by him. I swear his taste all are like
minah's clothing la dey. 2 Levis boxer and Singlet
for him. A ben10 toy watch @ toy r us for his cousins
which entitles us a membership card.
Awww. It feels so nice to go public at times.
No more having to worry about his bike parking.
Hassle of carrying helmets around while looking
at stuffs. Totally free!
Only the spending is a bit more than usual coz
we took taxi home. Hehe ...

So basically, I was asked by him this few questions

A moment of silence while both of us are gazing
towards the open water of Harbor Front.

Him: "b, what do u think of abg?"

me: "u giler giler. Tak betol. Bagi I geram"

Him: "b, serius la! why eh u choose us to meet again"

me: "I dunoe la u... I pon tak tahu"

Him: "u semua tak tahu but kan abg happy to get to know u"

me: "y eh? I kan buaya, slalu membebel kat u, perangai pe"

Him: "takder lah b, U understanding... selalu manja kan abg... abg happy"

me: "HAHAHA... u merepek ah b. Bile mase I manjakan u! I bully u aderlah"
*making faces at him*

Him: "ah da start la ni. abg serius lah"

me: "Yelah tu b"

So tell me. What now?
Am I dead?
Ask myself. How am I going to answer?
Orh. That day I fall asleep while he watched TV over at his place.
I caught him looking tru' my handphone!
Was lucky enuh the moment I opened by eyes I grabbed my phone
straight away. He almost ended up looking at those sms-es
between me and ehem ehem. *phew*
Bear in mind. I havent end up things with me and him.
I guess I need or should I say have to make up my mind soon.

I dun want to end up like
"...yang dikejar tak dpt yang di kendong berciciran"
Falsafah sungguh.

Life's Good? I think

2009-07-04T02:14:00.004+08:00

Life's been good so far. Apart from the busy schedule.
Rushing here and there but overall is okay for me.
As mentioned by beauillusion on my previous entry.
Hmm ... Love triangle. But I think wont be tat long.
Looking at situation now. I guess I shall not comment much
about syg. He's way too busy with his work. The gap
between us is just too far apart for us to mend it back.

Right so that's it. For him... Let him be; However
I miss his lil princess, Elly...

And so. Finally after so long, The Buayas Random meet up
on ina and me off day. Roller coster ride for us due to
ina's the PRO F1 racer that I can easily describe as
"kau-naik-kete-die-ada-chan-tak-kahwin-type" HAHA
So we had our lunch Sakae Buffet. Head down to Sentosa.
Took the skyride and Luge and finally we had Max Brenner
at Esplanade all due to my craving for Toffee. Hmph!
It's been so long since we got together and it's all
worth the effort of waking up early on my off day to
go out with them! It's like so FINALLY! and so there's
pictures of us ... Loads and Loads of them.

"sky ride - sumpah semua tak tahu dudok diam"

"Maxbrenner - Steaming the cravings off"

"At Siloso Beach - Model Posing"

"At Siloso Beach - Non stop action"

Truly love all the pictures. Haha

Right so ... Mr Mat Moto B.B is not that bad afterall.
I realize that after the Huge arguement we had last week
made us closer than ever. I spend way too much time with him.
Movies. Shopping. Dinner. Everything. He care too much
for me. Apart from fetching me from work even though the
travelling distance is far especially with a rxz bike.

oh no. wats wrong with me.
haiz. arghhh!

See what u ve done to me b! hmph!
Orh ya. ICE AGE 3 wasnt that good as I expected.However Transformer 2 Revenge of the Fallen is a Boom!The excitement made me grab his arms all the time.Sorry b! :P Ok ends. am at work. no more flight liao.Gotta talk to b on the phone.

Complicated

2009-06-29T02:09:00.002+08:00

Why do I always end up in such a confusing and complicated state?!
Right! So basically currently life's in 'topsy turvy'.

*singing aloud:"Disana Menanti Disini Menunggu"*
Conpius sungguh dot com.

Havent been meeting or contacting syg for a few weeks.
If he didnt bothered. So am I.
Ive decide to cancel all trips due to the stupid N1H1 thing!
I dun want to be Quarantine after the trip back from Holiday.
He didnt bothered to ask me either. So am just shutting my
mouth shut and see if he remembers.
Thinking about it make me feel really frustrated. So dun bothered.

Also in other hand.
Am drawn too close with Mr Mat Moto B.B.
But one thing about us is that financially both of us are in
such a bad financial state. Arrgh SHIT ah this month.
Frustrating when there's no Bonus. Damn it.

I was on 3 days course at Suntec for the last week.
And was fetched by him almost everyday.
Afternoon shift as well.
Though I told him not too. The moment I end work. He
will call me saying that he's at carpark waiting for me.
So Sweet.
All the way from B.B to Airport. With just a RXZ bike.
Am touch.

But like he commented about new relationship which just
started... "alah baru lagik semua nya manis"

Hah! I caught you. So I gave him the same comment back.
Whenever he 'se-tep' to baik baik with me.

Saturday was a disaster.
Or shall I say it's always a disaster when I drive with him.
He will either comment this and that about my driving or
he will pick and point of the route I took.
Whereas for that Saturday, the matter was so serious, that
we quarrel like one 'tak tahu malu giler melayu couple' by
the road. And we REALLY quarrel. Almost half an hour.
And both of us being the King and Queen of hard-headed, none
is willing to give in. Until I told him off and walk away.
Cooling myself down, by then my tears was superb tsunami liao.

Ok I cried. Not coz he scold or shouted at me in public.
Coz I was too angry with him.
We shut up for a few minutes just to sort things out.
He came over and hug me from the back whispering sorry to me.
hmmm....

Looking back at how things happen.
We realise how silly we are.

One thing I considered bad about me: I say everything out
when am angry and I actually did tat to him.
We started quarreling in the car. Shouting at each other.
He told me to stop by the road side to drop him off. But
I shut my mouth and drove off. In fact much faster speed.
He bang over the dashboard. Spilling the cup of drink he's
holding. Which I then shouted back at him and slam on the
steering wheel. I drove in the carpark and we stop.
All drama mamak started over there. And damn it. I accidentally
said to him

"u think am stupid and cruel to drop u off anywhere by the
roadside and let u go home like that! hey! if other girls,
I think they will do that, But No! I m not like them. I wont
do u until like that..."

SO I GIVE MYSELF AWAY.
So much for being so fierce.

But realizing that, arguments like that makes us more closer.
We had a serious talk after that at ECP.
About his late fiancee who passed away due to accident.
About how it happen and so on.
There he show me the pictures and etc.

Right so Now I understand why he's like that.
Somehow or rather that night we talked about everything.
About me as well. I guess he knows almost 70% of me.
He's expecting more from me though. He started saying
about future. About the IF we bla bla bla ...
*scary part*
And IF we were to have Wedding bla bla bla; his bikes friends
would want to do the escort bla bla bla.
His parent expectation ...
About what would be OUR house concept that I prefer bla bla bla
To get OUR weekend car bla bla bla

So just imagine my face (-_-').
Scary dok.
In my mind "... I dun even know I can last long with u"

Seriously, am not ready for any of this thing yet.
Totally. Not yet.

So right now. Am just going to sing

"Disana Menanti Disini Menunggu ..."

Orhh! help me get out from this complication.
I miss syg.
I want syg.
I m scared to hurt Mr Mat Moto B.B
I dun want to hurt syg too.

The bizarre part; both of them have the same starting name.
Scary but true. Mr ShahF____ & Mr ShahR__.

My colleague of mine, married young, with 2 kids.
asked me ..."so which you love more?"

I cant answer her. argh!
Help me.

Pasrah

2009-06-23T00:13:00.002+08:00

Just finished watching "Pasrah".
I simply got nothing else better to do.
Off day today I mean the day before coz Im
typing this after 12 midnite.
Current mood: Totally not in the best mood at all.
I want to complain my feeling. But I cant' seemed to.

The night off was spend with the girls and Syg.
Off to Syg's place to send stuffs and food...
Send him off to Blowfish and I met the girls at
Marina for Fish Spa. Pictures are with Inaaa.
Silence Treatment to him during the whole journey.
I had no idea why. But I hate silence treatment.
Though the msg was once a while. But I simply
dun like it.

Am confuse.
I hate this feeling.
Though I know it's impossible between me and him.
In fact many told me to leave him.
My colleague support me to forget him. Why am I choosing
someone with responsibility?
Why him? Why someone like him?
But am simply stubborn.
Why?
Coz I do *toot* him.
Haiz.

Damn. I hate the downturn period of life.

Long & Tedious

2009-06-19T02:50:00.003+08:00

Still at work. Currently alone. Night shift. The 2nd night.
I dun like 2nd night. This is when my energy is worn out.
Arrggh!! Orh Well I met my mamat ICA a while at T3.
I realized that T3 got lots of dark dark corners
for ehem ehem hem. HaHaHa... So I spend an hour over there.
Just basically hang out and talk. No ehem hem hem of coz!
Later kena caught, I die. He die more. HaHaHa...

Orh. Syg and Me was planning yesterday to go for another
short getaway again next month. Perhaps the middle of next
month. Dates ve yet to be set. It's either 12th July or the
week after that. Venue wise, we are still choosing either
Bintan again or Batam. I tot of going to KL but for 2 days
1 nite is kind of rushing for him coz he will be playing
the night we return home from the trip.

So am expecting a break.
This time ... who's joining us!? HeheHe...
*big big big smile on face*

Sayang

2009-06-18T03:10:00.002+08:00

First night shift at work, definately am awake.
I never sleep during my night shift. Kinna weird but I
realli cant sleep. It's either am surfing the net,
chatting or watching movie. Thanks to a few of my colleague
who actually shared their movies with me.
Ive just finished one movie "Confessions of a Shopaholic".
Not bad after all. Haha suddenly reminds me of myself now.
I better not end up like that. No No No. I used Nets. I pay
using the money I ve. I only use my credit card for Food.
Hahaha ... hey got discounts wat!

Orh well days havent that good. Just like how I was blabbering
at my previous post. But situation aint that bad either.
I guess, we need space. Just to do our stuffs...
So I should say; Both me and syg gave in to each other.
He msg me in a very touching way; which he stop using it
before we are kinna seriously going out with each other.

It's like all of a sudden he msg:

"... i miss you syg. I really do"

haiz.

it's as if he reads my previous entry gitu.
Scary.
But sweet.

Orh Well, am back to watching my 2nd movie. This time longer
a bit coz I m watching Kuch Kuch Hota Hai.
Dunoe for the 234756484744 times!

I luv Taufik Batisah and my Syg!

Cintamu Ku Bawa Mati

2009-06-16T23:23:00.002+08:00

Days Simply no good.
Work is getting tougher especially without
the guidance from nice nice people.
Am at the verge of breaking down
at work. Being pushed around here and there.
I end up reading the SOPs
again and again, trying to memorize as much as I can.
I wish to be posted to the new branch.
I want to climb all over the cargo containers!
No joke. I really do.

Me and syg haven't been in good terms.
We end up quarreling over small things.
I dunoe why. Perhaps we haven't been spending
much time together anymore. Both of us is bz
with stuffs. He didn't msg me as often as he used
to cause he's busy with his studio work and
performing at night. Almost every night...
It's a lie if I were to say that I didn't miss him at
all. But am starting to give up. I told him off
today when I send him a morning message, it was cruel.
But I dun care coz I want him to realise it.

Am not angry but I am just sad. Very sad.

The another mat is kinna scary.
But hey! am so used to this game.

He gave me an idea. Which I tot kind of risky to take.
To get a 2nd hand super4 bike. Me as a 2nd rider-owner.
Which he would use it,for fetching and sending me to work.
Installment is shared between me and him.
Until the next year I pass my 2A license, he would transfer
me the ownership and he would take out K7 bike.
Hmmm cool but very risky idea.
Cannot trust guys at all these days. Talk only.
Make him sign on my contract then he noe.
He think I m stupid innocent issit.

Perpatah from org org ...
"belom dapat, semua nya indah semua nya manis! PUIKK!"
*so true*

Orh Money is depleting tremendously this month cause
I think I shop online too much. Shopping w mum also.
Lending it to people. Transferring here and there.
I end up with nothing. Haiz.
Losing weight isnt easy cause I end up shopping more.
Thats y I say I diet for the sake of Fashion cause I
realise now I can wear more stuffs. Orh well, I still have
at least 8 kilos more to lose until I reach my
acceptable weight category. Overall, I guess it's isnt the
appearance that counts. It's the feeling. Maybe am losing
weight now, but my heart aint that happy as I used to be.

I enjoyed listening to Taufik Batisah's voice everytime
am down. It simply makes me feel so much better. hmm...

Orh well night shift tomm. Will be at office tru out this
week. Shittoss' I hate being an 'aaiiiii oooo'. No good.

And yes. I m tempted to chop off my long hair to the shortest
hair level I could think off. But I m hook to using the
curling tong to do my hair cause I realise now my hair look
like those china-hongkong-japan mari kind of girls hairstyle.
hmmm dunoe hoe. I m conpiusss!

hmmm ok. enuh. Sleeping soon.

I dun like this

But I really miss u ;'(

Rindu Banget

2009-06-12T05:53:00.002+08:00

Look at the time. I am wide awake. Truly something is wrong
with my sleeping time. I slept late after night shift yesterday.
Apart from finishing work late. I went to Arab st with mum w/o
sleeping at all. So that's explain my low-battery-body for the day.

I ve choose my colors for this year raya. Had send it for tailoring
as well. It's easy when you have the money. Just pay and they can
do anything for you. No matter how hard the material that you choose.
Pray hard it's gonna turn nice and I really need to lose 9 more kg
so that I can fit in those things nicely. My color for this year is
White. at last! I m wearing white.

Mum said: 'ah nanti tunang pon boleh pakai ...'
truly, something wrong in her head already! SIAO.

The moment I reached home today I slept and only to wake up a while
to msg my dear wawa that I wont be following her to nightlife today.
Even though I wish to coz I tot of visiting syg at his club.

Issues between me and him is resolved. We talked and he explained that
he's too occupied with his work. Late noon with Hady at Studio and
night at club. No off days for the moment. I do feel for him. In other
hand I dun too. *shug*

My work kind of sucks too at times. With my confirmation means more
work. Am officially an 'aaiiii o'. Shit!
New reshuffle next months, new branch coming in. We are going to be
back at all the ports. I wondered if it's possible for me to be
transferred there!

Afternoon shift tomm. Alkisah tersebot alkisah. Baru-baru ini aku
baru kenal ngan Mat Bike Bukit Batok (MatBBB). Hmm... Definitely,
this one is lain mcam also. He ve been fetching me from work for
the past 2 afternoon shift. And he's doing it again tomm. Dun
ask me why but these mats have something in their mind. What else.
Apart from paying for all my food. Watched movies. Chilling at
Marina Barrage. Labrador. Henderson Bridge. Fort Canning. Hey! I
ve been spending more time with him now. So what should I say?

Is syg spending too much time with work?
or am I just too rebellious?
No wonder unfaithful song by Rihanna is such pain in the ears
everytime.

Orh! last night at work, I attend to this pilot crew. It turns
out to be the old Cemas actor guy. The hunk main actor la!
Watever his name was I think it's Fairuz or something. He's
actually a Pilot? Serious or wat. Ok I acted cool as if I dunoe
him. HAHA but he's kinna Hot. Tall Muscular. Smart. Neat. Truly
a gentleman hunk la dey! This is called a hunk with brains!
OMG OMG OMG! but TAUFIK BATISAH still the kesayanganku.

ok enuh!
Schedule Truly packed this weekend.
I need to spend time with syg coz it's his turn to grumble.
2 weeks dok tak jumpa langsong!
My dear shazzy getting engaged this Sat.
Hmmm going back to Arab St again on Sun.
Then ina plak engaged. then Wawa. *oopss*
Haha ... mampui aku~

Firstly. I miss syg. I miss spending time like how we did at Bintan.
First and the half. I miss syg daughter. Elly.
Second. I miss my buayas girls. Long time no hangout.
Thirdly. I miss eating good food for the past 2 months dieting.
Forth. I miss my Team Delta.

ok da. nak continue sleep.
Good morning world!

Geram!

2009-06-10T02:51:00.003+08:00

Superb angry with the Ayah.
What's with people in the music industry?
Or should I say what's with the people I dated are all
busy with their career? huh huh huh?
until ve no time for me at all?
all become more selenger!!!
argh!
angry. superb damn angry.
After so long,

I would like to end my entry with
I HATE U!

and also, I hate this year! coz no bonus! CHEEB!
wat a luck! there goes my wish of getting a bike!

orh! I meet TAUFIK BATISAH the 2nd time at airport.
His arrival at airport.
but I run away again....
I SHY

So I say...
I will go to him only the 3rd time.
perhaps it's FATED. wow! so sweet! HAHHAh
TAUFIK I LUP U!
HAKPUIII!

Asik Kena Marah Day...

2009-06-01T03:30:00.002+08:00

Ok first of all ...

Eh WAWA aku terkekek sorang sorang bace ko peh blog
dedicated for aku and ina. And aku lom ader bf okek :)
Since ko da buat opening, ader best tolak sini sikit!
Inaaa tak leh. Die nye kes da comferm chop stamp registered
mail postaged nye. Next year die tunang. So tinggal
aku and ko aje ok set! go! HAHAHA

It's oready the 1st of June.
Officially am in Alpha Team.
As expected mamat ICA aku da msg if tomm is my night shift.

Da terang lagi nak bersulur ...
Aku sula karang, baru tahu berok ni!

Ok. So I actually told syg about the story of me being
transferred to another team and the same team as this
mamat ICA of mine.

He said

Die mengatal ke u yang mengatal kat die ...?

Heh! I guess he noes me well enuh now.
Once a buaya always a buaya!

Haiz.

See I cant sleep! check the time! Arrgghh !!!

Our outing today aint that great.
I quarrel with syg coz of stupid stuffs.
Coz of road. Coz of MY driving. Coz of Food.
Luckily got lil princess Ellie.
Or else I would ve just shut dup and dun want
to talk to him at all.

Face the fact. I'm sucks in road direction at EAST!
Am not a pro. parking driver! Syg! you are just like
my dad who scold me for this and that while I drive.
I wish I got eject button so that I can just eject
you out of the car! Hmph!

At last I let him drive.
Making me sitting at the passenger seat next to him!
At last! lil princess jealous. She ended up sitting
with me on my lap as well.

As usual we ate at ECP. Damn packed with people.
And due to that pon bleh marah marah *da sebijik bapak aku*
By then Ive lost the appetite to eat.
And Ive yet to eat anithing for the day.
End up our food was eaten bits and pieces by the lil
princess. Small body yet big appetite. like Inaaa.

Ellie's said:
Ellie boncet.
Ayah pon boncet.
Aunty ajer lom boncet.

Wakaka... Cannot tahan. Aku minom air terbegek sekejap.

So we then head down to Tamp Giant. Another packed
place! Problem parking again. And tu pon he bising bising.
Ellie bz pestering the ayah to buy her water bottle.
Kecoh kejap dlm kete.

I realized that Giant at Tamp is very cold. Lil Princess's
body was so cold and shivering. By then we decide to just
queue up and pay our groceries. While the ayah and me take
turns to carry lil princess coz we dun want her to fall sick.

Ayah was asking her lame question.
Just to keep her awake.
Or I ve to carry her all the way.

Since we are facing a mirror, Syg decide to crack a joke
Ayah: Ellie, Ayah hensem tak?
Ellie: Tak. Ayah tak hensem. Aunty Lawa. *she giggle*
Ayah: Eh! Ellie! Aunty tak lawa! Ayah hensem!
Ellie: No! *hugging me*

HAHAH budak ni. pandai ampu org!
Ayah nye boring ajer. Haha Sorry syg! She's ur daughter k.
I shall not comment anithing about it.

Reached his place, I unpacked all groceries while he clean up
lil princess, change her to her sleeping attire. She's sleeping
over at his place since it's already the sch holiday.
Layan her with her coloring books. Learning maths. And writing.
Sharpen all her color pencils.
Aku da mcm kindergarten teacher.

Syg bz with his computer stuffs.
Open Thumbelina vcd, make drinks for the ayah and ate snacks.
Lil princess ended up sleeping first after drinking her milo.
While me and the ayah kusyuk watching Thumbelina.
Lil princess da syok mengorok.
Slept just like the ayah. Take up so much space. Haha

So the sleeping of lil princess means the private time for us.
He mentioned something which makes me felt better so far.

Him: Syg, You marah dengan I pasal what happen tadik? Am sorry ok.

Me: Ah you memang angin kus kus satu badan. :(

Him: Sorry okay Syg.

Me: Hmmmm...

Bwwrrgh! Ok next trip, he plan to bring lil princess to zoo.
Which he oready promised her.
Syg! u die! u promise her nanti die tuntot you! HAHA

My Delta Team

2009-05-31T02:09:00.003+08:00

Am currently very very sad. Am being transferred to another
Team W.E.F 1st June. Am so Sad. I m going to miss all my team mates.

KoKo. Mdm. My Kak Ros. My Abg Man. Abg Zaini. Abg Fai and Abg Afiz.
I m going to miss the reporting off together.
The makan makan night nugget party together.
The talk c*ck together.
The bullying of mamak traders together.
The drama mama together.
The cocok cocok of stomach together. :'(
Now
Ur dearest Baby in the team kena transfer to another Team.
*sobs sobs*

Ok I was about to cry on the last shift just now with them.
What can I say. I m just too attached to them.
Everything seems so easy and a breeze whenever I m with them.
How would I expect that being confirmed resulted me in being
transferred to another team.

I relli not in the good mood to werk animore.

Though my shift is now the same with Inaaa's.
And also my mamat ICA. which means I got night
company. Maybe even free transportation to and back
to werk., Heh heh eh *joget joget*

Just reached home though. Syg told me to rest and
sleep but I just simply cant. Perhaps am just too
sad. To heartbroken. And Scared.

For the first time ever I watched syg performing
at Swing Bar just now. Haha I felt so weird. Odd though.
Sungguhtakbiasa.com
Owww I saw the lady who's interested in him.
Alamak another Eurasian type of girl la dey!
He performed for 2 sets and we sneak off from the
crowd. Hahaha
Had late supper and he hail the cab for me to go home.
I got long day tomm. Facial and Massage.

Late afternoon will be a meeting syg to bring Elly, the
little princess out for a walk... hmmm Maybe downtown east?
Wat do you say ayah? Haha

The ayah was saying ...

... Syg u bring Elly go facial and massage with you ah?

Me

... You siao ah! AHAHAH ... furthermore she's beautiful enuh.

Ayah

... so do u wat. Why must facial summore?

Me

.... *shuddup*

Never Eazy

2009-05-25T01:27:00.003+08:00

Am on 2nd Morning shift later.
Yet not asleep yet. Weather damn warm.
Am sweating in bed.
And I got problem sleeping even though
I ve took my panadol xtra for my tooth.
My wisdom tooth growing.

And as quoted by my colleague ... "eh u got wisdom ah" WTH -_-'

My gums was damn painful the whole time when I was at Genting-KL with
the girls. I enjoyed the trip though. First time to Genting! I like ...
Damn cold. But Syok! especially the hot mocha latte in such a cold
weather. No werk. No guys. Heaven giler! But sadly I only managed to
take 2 rides at the outdoor theme park. Boring nye ...

I did pretty lots of shopping to make up the non-shopping a.k.a
honeymoon Bintan trip. I spend SG300 on shopping and food. Pening
Pening. But worth the trip though. Bought syg 3 T shirts. 4 tops
for mine. 3 tank tops. Passport covers. Lighters for colleagues.
Mum's tudong and Rado Watch.

Someone miss their bf like crazy over there. But I was kinna ok.
Syg called the moment he woke up. By then I was already at Genting.
He entrust me to look after myself and behave. Awww ...
Though he did mentioned he will called at times and make sure I
picked up the phone. But knowing his schedule ... I doubt he ve the
time.

Furthermore ... Absence Makes The Heart Grow Fonder ... Ahakz touching.

As much as Inaaa dun want to leave her bf.
I think next time I cant bear too as well.
The day I came back in sg, he said that he's sick.
The next day I met him, he was looking pale ...
Suspected food poisoning.
The mr degil dun want to see doc. Saying he's fine.
Well kind off?

Was planning to go ntuc and shop for household items on my off day
but he's with his studio werk and stuffs. Ended up fetch him at
Bali Lane where's he's chilling with his mates.
So I ended up chilling with him too.

Orh! one of his frend damn cute la dey!
Got dimple damn fair like hell.

Potong stim. Syg saw me smilling2 at that cute frend of his.
Da aku kena cubit... hmmm! wat! a buaya will always be one!
And he was pissed off with me coz I refuse to let him hug
me in front of his mates. *hee hee*

So after which I ended up sending him home and buying groceries at
petrol station. Unpacked the stuffs watched tv with him a while.
Prepare his light snacks for the night and I drove home alone.
*msg ina ntah mane hilang lepas tu. tengelam dlm yishun dam agaknye*

By the time I reached home it was about 3am.
And I suffered so much during my morning shift yesterday!
Luckily dad send me to work.

Now I cant sleep. Stupid la my sleeping time all over oready.
Damn it.

orh Last one. the whole office laugh at me over my slenger-ness.
All coz I run away when I saw Taufik Batisah at my werkplace.
Where all my colleague took pic with him. I run away. silly I noe.

Waatttt! I M SHY LA!
hmmmph sudahla ketawe kan aku ajer kan!

Erm ok I also want to end my post with

I luv u syg!
*eee geli*

<3 Simply in Love

2009-05-12T01:29:00.004+08:00

I m back in Sg around 5pm yesterday.
Bintan Trip was relli relli nice. I like the place.
Very the 'Bali'. The beach was awesome, relaxing and
relli very the romantic! Hahaha Kate honeymoon!
Thanks eh to my colleague for msging me in the morning
just to wish me Happy honeymoon-ing!

There I relli spend my time relaxing and just simply
spending the time together.

We left his place frm Tampinese around 7am to catch our
morning ferry at 8.10am. Kinna late. The weather was
raining heavily when we woke up. Worst he ve yet to pack
his stuffs the nite before. Since I got ready much more
quicker than him, he got ready while I packed his bag and
do his laundry. Bwrgggh!!!

Phew! managed to reach TMFT by 7.20am to check in and get
our boarding pass. Had breakfast while I busy writing our
white card! The moment we sat in the ferry, both of us felt
asleep again! hehe ... Weather was cold. Haha ... but not
for too long coz the moment we step on the Bintan Island
weather was damn hot hot hot!

We reached Bintan rather early and no rooms is available
until 12noon. Sg time is 1pm. No idea what to do, we went
off to the recreational center to play pool. Slack at the
resort lobby, took pics. Relli Nice place!

We only managed to check in 12.30pm, that's only when syg
went over to the check in counter and harassed them to be
quick! The moment we set in the hotel room, which got simply
a breathtaking view of the South China Sea. King Size bed. A
veranda. Huge toilet with Bath Tub.

And yes! I head to the toilet first! Had our shower and both
of us slept again! Only to be woken up when we are hungry!!
Had Buffet lunch ... but I think the food was just ok ok for
us. Once done, we walked around the resort. Syg bought a few
beach shorts while I bought nothing.

Back to our room. We slept again! HAHA

Woke up at around 8 plus to go for Dinner!
This is relli nice nice nice! But the price is simply no nice.
So we had our candle lite dinner by the beach. Eating
grill seafood. Weather was humid. Full moon. Lots of star!!!
We talked ... and yah. It was damn romantic. Just Minus the
tuxedo and the dress thing. Coz both of us are just in shorts
and tee/singlet. Once done, we took a stroll down the beach.
AWwwww... I simply like the place!

Tat night we watched movie on HBO. slacked in the room.
Massaging each other back as the spa over there was damn ex!
Talking and talking, he felt asleep on my lap. Hmph. So
I ended up watching tv alone. Put him to sleep. Packed our stuffs.
And I joined him in bed by 1am! Haha ...

I think we slept at lot!
But overall we do meet the objective of this holiday which
is to spend time together.

2nd day was much more slack. Check out at 12 noon and rented a
buggy to go around the resort. Haha it's my first time trying to
drive that thing. Syg was wide awake all the time coz he's afraid
that we might end up in the longkang. Haha. I gave up halfway and
let him drive instead! Haha but at least I try something new~!

Oh well... back to Sg. Back to our normal daily life.
We will be back to Bintan Island again but this time he's planning
to bring the kids along =) there goes our romantic time together!
Hahaha ...

Next will be the Genting KL trip. This time with my girls!
Syg told me to just enjoy myself. but then I cant bear to
leave him in SG. Now I sound like Inaaaaa!!! HAHAHHA
*saje nak selet daun colored org*

Orh! Lots of pics this time round. I got a few in my phone.
Syg phone and Camera.
For now, picture shown will be just from my phone!

Awww I love all the pictures! AHAHHAHA ...

"Our Fav. Pic"

So ... a new beginning for me =)

all ready to go!

2009-05-09T00:12:00.002+08:00

Am all ready to go for my trip. I got 2 trips this month
and I am jolly well going to enjoy every bits pieces of it.
Since after today I will be busy with my trip here and there.

Bintan Lagoon tix collected.
Resort hotel at Genting Booked.
Departure and return home by Coach Booked.
Hotel at Federal Booked.
I realized no breakfast. Takper la makan murah kat sane ye.

So will be on morning shift tomm.
Will treat my parents for meal at airport tomm after werk.
After which am going home to packed all my stuffs for Bintan.
Since the syg is most likely not working tomm.
We've decide to watch movie first.
Go for makan as usual.
Spend time together.
And I will be spending a nite at his place coz our morning ferry is
at 0810hrs. So Since we are departing at tanah merah.
I shall save on my taxi fare.
Aniway I doubt am going to sleep.

Orh. I ve a new target to decrease my weight to 70kg by the next month.
I ve 10kg more to go. I had lose 8 kg since last month.
Syg is relli supportive =) he's always giving me encouragement.
So by this year. I shall set my weight at 65kg and the height of 168!
ok more jogging to do.
Who noes I might change job. to SPF ? or try CNB again.
Provided syg allowed me too.
My fetish for guys in uniform relli makes him mad at times.
Orh well am always the cheeky one.

Yea!!! So am so looking forward for my holiday.
Goodbye work! I hate u!
But am hoping for better PB next year or maybe a promotion!

ok da nak tdo.
almost fall asleep just now when syg called.
now am up. grrr... mengacau betol org tue ni.

right so.
I guess am accepting the fact.
I M WITH HIM.
ok da bye!

Honeymoon! HAHA

2009-05-05T03:52:00.002+08:00

Am still not asleep yet! ...
This week nite off was kind of okay okay.
Nite shift was relli tough. I m beginning to find
my job 'challenging' abes. Orh I need a break!
But whatever it is. I m happy coz May is my holiday
month!

This week I m off for my holiday to Bintan !!!
Payment made. Waiting for confirmation and I can
take the necessary stuffs by Thursday... Hopefully.
So yea! am looking forward for that! I want to
sleep all the way! Do not disturb signboard up!

Next will be KL and Genting Trip.
So much as I dun wish to leave my SYG behind...
I think I need my space with my girls as well!

Just in case I m late in messaging and informing
you that the coach to Genting is @ $80 each.
Going home KL - SG is @ $45 each. Whereas the bus
from Genting down to KL, tix is available at the First
World Transtar office itself. There's an interval of
1hr or so.
Erm Bus still got so dun worry.
Takde bus kite lari jogging to genting!

orite! i ve done my part.
but eh. I havent comfirm i can take leave or not sak!
Damn it!

ARGGHHH!

YEAH BINTAN!!!

ok ok BINTAN WITH SAYANG!
HAH PUAS HATI KAMU KAMU KAMU!

ok da nak sleep.

Faith

2009-05-01T00:48:00.002+08:00

Right! coming to a week for the ayah with his studios stuffs.
And I am deadly bored, goin to werk and back home straight.

We managed to meet a while yesterday after
which he then needs to resume his work at orchard hotel.
So considered the date was just like 30mins in the car.
With the jammed at town! Arrrgghhh! sacrifices. nvm.

Right so I m off for a short holiday to somewhere
near Singapore Island. My Bintan trip is confirm
on the 10th May to 11th May!
My leave is approved! Only left me to do the
booking and Monday to collect the tix with the ayah.
Since no one is free to follow
I guess it will just be me and him.
He needs a break from studio werk
while I need a break from airport world!

And something for me to think off.

"...syg u jumpa i tak k*Ss i pon eh"

err do i have to?

"... syg why u tak pernah nak jalan and holds my hands"

am not like other girls.

"... syg why i never hear from you saying you syg i ?"

i just cant.

"... no no no I wont allow you to bla bla bla"

alah pls?

" ... syg I have faith in you ok..."

errr smile =)

Suriyana you are just simply very keras kepale keras hati everything!
Orh shut dup!

Oh well! It's better to be loved than to love.
Which I do actually think it's so true.
Now I appreciate it.

SYG! I MISS YOU!
This time I really do.

I dun Know.

2009-04-27T02:33:00.002+08:00

Orh well ...

Ive taken a step further deep down my own grave.
Am scared to face the coming future.
For sure there's a heartbreak.

But am currently happy.

A simple dinner at EastCoast Lagoon.
A walk by the beach.
Buying groceries at NTUC.
Send lil princess to the grandmum's place.

She's relli sweet, cute and smart.
Though I felt awkward being called as ~~auty~~

Orh this is cute, the scenario was something like this ...

The ayah was going off to buy some stuffs,
I was in the car with the lil princess.
The moment the ayah is back in the car.

The lil princess was saying this ...

"ayah y so late ... "
"ayah beli benda ke buat benda"
(this part aku yang ajar...)

Ayah answered dengan selamber...

"Ayah go tengok tengok perempuan tadik ... tats y lambat"

Lil princess answered ...

"cannot ayah! nanti aunty jealous aunty marah!"
*dengan penuh semangat yet malu malu*

Me and the ayah was looking at each other ...

expression-less.

I swear that part I didnt taught her to answer that way.

When the ayah hit me the lil princess will hit the ayah back.
How sweet...

kekek aku. ahHAhah...

Orh well the ayah will be busy at studio for this week.
So I guess I got some time on my own. Apart from work...

Berserah

2009-04-25T19:25:00.002+08:00

It's almost the end of April. Am doing good.
Werk is pretty easy now due to extra manpower at work.
New recruits in and they are the one mainly doing the work.

Remember that I mentioned that I m in deep trouble.
Dead meat. so on ...
And relli, I m dead ...
He's serious. Kind of.
If ur asking me that I ve feelings for him.
I would say maybe. Somehow or rather I do ... I guess.

Hmmm a relationship with no ending.
What can I say about it?
Well it's better to be loved than to love.
Till now, he's way to concern about me than those guys
who I ve loved before. It's too early to say though.
hmmm

Bike wise, disappointingly am still looking for a 2nd hand
ones. The first hand gilera which Ive asked for the price
was way too expensive and not worth if I were to upgrade to
a 2a bike next year. I shall not waste the money but save it
for my 2a. For now ....

I drive first la!
Furthermore, soon I have to go on a 3 pax date!
Ergh! I cant imagine.

Sick!

2009-04-13T11:25:00.002+08:00

Ive been feeling tired these days. My whole Body aching. Blocked Nose. Running nose when I lay face down. Burning throat.
I guess it's my turn to go Sick Leave soon.
It's the weather or issit just me?
I wish I can go for full body massage.
Facial and hair treatment.
Which nevertheless going to cost me around 100 plus.
Duit lagik!??!

Arrgghhh Life's so miserable!!

hmmmm

Am listening to this song ...

Embun di pagi buta
Menebarkan bau asa
Detik demi detik ku hitung
Inikah saat ku pergi

Oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
Berikanlah aku hidup
Takkan ku sakiti dia
Hukum aku bila terjadi

Aku tak mudah mencintai
Aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta
Aku tak mudah mengatakan
Aku jatuh cinta

Senandungku hanya untuk cinta
Tirakatku hanya untuk engkau
Tiada dusta sumpah ku cinta
Sampai ku menutup mata
Cintaku sampai ku menutup mata

Oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
Berikanlah aku hidup
Takkan ku sakiti dia
Hukum aku bila terjadi

Ouch~ :(

ok gonna get ready. Meeting sis to get my bike.
Guess what bike I gonna get?
Sape betol aku belanje air!

I still Wants This!

2009-04-11T11:34:00.004+08:00

The more am choosing my bike the more I really want this bike.

But fat hope! in my dream. Wait for class 2 License then get R6 teros!

Orh Jantan Keberet da semangat nak letak name aku dalam insurance moto
die. Wah! eh mat! minah u lain mane? p la cari dorang letak name dorang.
Pasal name aku plak. Tapi bagos jugak. Moto u bagi i pakai ajer la. save
duit I sikit.

Am taking my time to choose a bike.
Monday am going for bike shopping! Yahoo!
And suddenly I realised that my points for class 3 is also 12 pts as well~!
I better drive carefully from now on!

Irritating Fellow

2009-04-10T23:30:00.002+08:00

I hate having to wake guys up in the morning! EEEeeEe geram nye aku! marah ni! marah sangat! nak tgk aku mogok! Fine it's my turn to merajok! Hmph! I wont give in this time. And after this, dun even dare to argue with me if I have no time for u! You and ur sleep! go ahead! sleep forever!

Argh! Geram nye.

Am still searching for a bike.
Arggh! Lepas satu balak satu balak!
Lame-Lame Gilera Sudah!

Sleepless Nite

2009-04-08T05:05:00.002+08:00

Ive been sleeping more than 12hrs since ysterday.
From early evening till 4.30am Just now.
In fact am still going to continue sleeping soon.
Pretty hectic schedule these days...
Sick an tired. I want to take a few days off.
Yet unable to due to my team members is taking a long leave.

Orh Happy news!
Ive passed my class 2b!!!
I can buy my bike now.
Still undecided yet. Will shop for bike soon.
any inputs? hmmmmmm

I wish I can tell you the good news dear.

The Summone.

2009-03-31T03:20:00.004+08:00

Am simply very weird.
It's coming to 4am and I m not asleep yet.
Am not in the night shift now. Am at home comfortably on my bed.
I had a good body and foot scrub just now after work.
I spend almost 60 bucks on scrubbing items at Body Shop.
Dun ask me why but I enjoy scrubbing my body these days.
It feels very smooth and the smell of the body wash simply fruity ah!

The summone just called me to report strength for the night.
He just finished performance at Pump Room.
I feel relli uncomfortable with the situation currently.
Seriously, if these is to go on and he's relli seriously serious giler nak mampos.
Sememang nye aku mampos.
Aku da leh bunoh diri sendiri.
Or should I run away ah sak!
I tot it feels nice to be called "sayang" but when it
comes from him I felt weird.

I told shasha about this, all she did mentioned was ...

"jgn cakap abis"

In other words. You might never know. Who noes he's the one.
But one thing he's kinna possessive.
No doubt he's caring, really straight forward *scary* tak leh ang!
I relli dunoe wat to do.
Buntu kepala aku dibuatnye.
I dunoe if I should make it clear to him or shuld I just go on playing the game. Pretty weird.

I do pray for someone to rescue me.

Yes, Also I do hate facebook now.
I dun find it good at all.
Coz it's so much hurting compared to entertaining.
I saw A _ _ _ _ 's wedding pic. *Ouch* At last he's married.
But to sum one he mentioned knowing less than 1 yr.
Perhaps Inaaa ur right, it's the best that I dun attend his wedding.
Looking at the pics oready makes my heart crushed I cant imaging
myself attending the wedding itself. I think I will run one corner
and cry. Siao. I know. Gee! the feeling is still there wat!

Mungkin ini lah org ckp Jodoh.

Orh my big day coming in less than a week.
Doakan yang terbaik buat aku pls?
Coz this is really meaningful to me.
Orh I already tried testing on the choices,
but I dun feel comfortable.
I dun like the slugging feeling. Felt so weird.

Well it's time, I need my beauty sleep.
Orh I got new nick name at work.
Korean-Asiana-Airline-stewardess-Doll-Face.
I swear I never make up to werk, only eyeliner.
*nt attached mah can wear eyeliner*
and baby Johnson talcum powder *PPOOFFF* on face.
Relli ah SIAO CHA BORRR ah u people!

Mati Mati Tentu Mati

2009-03-29T10:42:00.002+08:00

Situation is very bad. I m a dead meat.
Relli. Mati mati tentu mati
Help! ikan pari da sting!

Soul Searching

2009-03-24T02:47:00.002+08:00

The question mark is solved. He didnt solved it for me
but I solved it myself. Hey! it's just him. Am so sure going out
with him is just a thing to help me passed by time quickly.
I dun wish to add in another guy in my life.

As quoted by someone ... "am still young, there's no hurry"

For now, am satisfied with the contacts that I've.
Orh. I ve met Mr ICA. He's in T3. so we accompany each
other after/before our shift starts to go Canteen or buy
stuffs. He's a nice guy after all. We keep our frenship
*hush hush* cause we dun want to let the whole airport team
knoes we are in contact with each other. Airport politics.
Gossips. ICA also got a lot lerr... apart from their KPI they
are also KPO. Haha ...

Apart from guys in my life.

My big day is coming soon in 2 weeks time.
I do pray hard I will pass at 1 go.
But I think I might fail.
But even if I failed, I will not give up. I hope.

Hey new renovated office at work seems big until I
am currently having headache. Though we ve our own
girl's changing room the space is so small.
Smaller Locker. Nice support of back type of chair.
Carpet Floors. Clean White Tables.

Orh well.
Suddenly. I Miss My Buaya Girls la.
Woi Korang biler nak kluar?
Jom makan Newton Jom!
Or go Sentosa or something?
Mcam tak puas la that day peh Chalet.
Semua ngan mambang satu satu tinggal kan aku sorang... :(

Confusion

2009-03-21T00:47:00.002+08:00

It's either my life is full of confusion or I am just finding
for trouble. Or should I say ... WAT AM I DOING NI!

Dun ask me wat happenned!
Dun ask me why.
I m absolutely blank.

But he did pinch a bit of my heart.
Damn it.
Stop it sak!
Oh no!

Buaya Birthday Bash!

2009-03-16T04:38:00.003+08:00

Buaya Birthday Bash Was Great.
Though it was drizzling tru' out the bbq-ing.
We ve so much difficulty in lighting up the fire!
Grrrrr! Overall was nice.

It was lucky that we had 2 cars coz the stuffs that
we bought was like shifting to a new house!
Everyone was so excited and so do I.
Months of preparing, soon the day is here!

Anyway am still waiting for pictures for the whole
event.

Also, Thank You for all the gifts.
Esp Kak Lyni aka Kakak Buaya. for all ur hardwork in preparing
the stuffs for bbq and also the Buaya soft toy and the customize
card. Thanks Kak Lyni & Nurul for the wonderful Gifts.
Thank You Ika for the Royce Chocolate.
Thank You Inaaa aka Chip Buaya for the cupcakes!
Thank You Aisah and Anee for the Carebear keychain.
Thank You Samir for the Shared-FeraroRoche' Chocolate.
Thank You Shazzy for the shared-MrsFields M&M mini cupcakes.
Thank You all for coming to the bbq.
Thank You to all my buayas Association for the hard work
and the planning way back from Last year december.

Perhaps shuld make it a yearly event?

To Chip Buaya, I hope You Like Ur Superman Bling Bling Tshirt!
And the video Ive make especially for all the buayas this year
Buaya Birthday Bash! hehe I enjoyed making the video
myself!

Orh. Currently Ms Buaya Pencen in is deep deep trouble.
"tulah takder pasal p cari pasal kan... kan
da terpancing salah ikan; ape aku nak buat ni skg!
mati aku! help help! =( oh my God. Arrgghh!!!
arrghh cam mane ni Buaya Junior, hanya ko paham
perasaan aku dan situation aku skg ni... MATI!!! "

Galau

2009-03-04T18:12:00.002+08:00

... aku hanya ingin kau mengerti
apa yang aku pernah alami selami ini

Trying

2009-02-26T23:14:00.003+08:00

I know I am strong enough to face this.
Trying so hard.
Sacrificing as much.
I prayed to Allah that the path
Ive choose is right.

I wish I can tell you what Ive gone tru' without u.
I wish You will give me a hug and giving me a twist
on my ears for me taking my 2b license.
I wish You will pinch my cheeks and scold me for being stubborn.
I wish You will nagged at me about what bike I shouldn't be riding
or perhaps the idea of buying a bike.

Oh Well, I wish ....

Orh! Sum Pic of the kids and Me during my Birthday.

"Love Truly"

... am missing you so much tat am hoping ur in my arms right now

But It's all in my dream ... I dream ...

I LOVE U

2009-02-25T23:07:00.003+08:00

First of all, I would like to say thank you to my Miss Chip Buaya and Kakak Buaya for planning the surprise for my 22th Birthday and also Nurul's Belated Birthday. I lup you people. Very much. U make my birthday a meaningful one!

Orh yes.

THANK U FOR THE ICE CREAM CAKE. I GOT MORE THAN 1 SLICE COZ OF U ALL.

Pic quality damn bad lor.

I simply love the whole event.
Truly.

Next Event the Buayas' Bday Bash !!!
So many planning to do.
Cant Wait for the day.
I will launch the official logo of the Buaya!

orh apart from all this ...

I just received a long long 'distance' phone call at
10.18pm from

Ritz.

So much as I used to hate u for all u ve done to me.
I do miss so much ok.
(ok my buaya going to kill me for this)
I didnt expect u to remember me ...
Still having a mix feeling
Kusut sangat!

Angry

2009-02-21T15:03:00.000+08:00

benciiii!!!!!!!!!!

the 22th ...

2009-02-21T00:06:00.002+08:00

Simply no good.

Thank You for all the sms and messages.
Appreciate it.

But am simply disappointed over him.
I didnt ask much.
I just want a slice of ice cream cake.
which I realised it's like so the big thing.
ok nvm it's ok. I dun mind.
also
to meet me at Clem Mcdonalds ...
seems like another HUGE favour to ask from U.
ARGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Am I asking for much?!
Simply disappointed.
ArrgHH. It's better to shuddup...

da aku fed up.
Ape2 la. aku nak tdo!!!

A day Before the 22th

2009-02-19T11:14:00.004+08:00

Am Just a day before my 22th Birthday.
Nuthing special for this year though.
It's just another year added to my age.
I've too much target sets for my upcoming years.
But it's simple jumbled up all over in my brains.

Past few days of non-werking was fun yet boring.
Ive been going out with mum since Monday.
Went to town with Mum. I bought nothing except
a pair of flat, another box of fake eyelashes,
Chomel Pearl Ear Stud, and 2 clips. Orh also
a Braun Bauffel Wallet. LV was kinna too expensive
for my advance birthday present u see!

That's for day 1, day 2 I went for my practical
back to back yet fail my pract8 for the first time
with 22pts. Wasnt that bad after all. Makes silly
mistakes which I think can be avoided. Met mum at
West Mall after the practical and Bought her for
late lunch at Pasta Mania.
Suddenly the taste of Pasta aint that nice like it
used to be. Maybe coz it's already Halal? WTH!

Day 3 went out to Jurong point. I bought another
pair of shoes. Heels. Mum said that I can open
another shoe shop for all the collections I ve.

And today is my Day 4, I got another pract8 later.
Ends around 4 which I think am heading home straight
no matter if I pass or fail. I m simply dun bother
about the result of the practical. I ve lose the
enthusiasm to go on.

A day before birthday is simple no good.
I relli miss him

Mr A and Me ve been good.
We met almost once a week. Sometimes more.
Frequently when both of us are on PM shift.
He either send me home or we met after I reached home
and washed up.
It feels like it's the old time.
Sometimes I feel maybe it's all fated.
He's a great guy.
But ....

hmm let the music do the explanation.
*I nvr realized it until we girls sang it in the car*

Orh Well, am emotionally no good these days.
The growing up no. is keeping my emotions
haywire. I miss hug. Terribly.

Hmmm I Guess am going to go for a drive later.

Mintak Dicubit!

2009-02-12T03:04:00.002+08:00

Budak Ni sungguh mintak kena cubit!
Haha took those pic frm Kak Ina's Multiply.
Sungguh aku nak pelok pelok budak ni!

Time layan die jgn ckp.
Mcam-mcam kerenah die.

Also that time she mention uncle?
Where's uncle?
UNCLE MANE SAK!
*smack head*
Hish budak ni.
(kalau uncle ridz ok? Haha aku giler)

Orh Dhia Nadrah! Aku sungguh miss kamu.
Aku miss Raiyan! Aku miss si Kecik Ian!
Hmph

Will meet u budak budak on my birthday!
Swimming again?!?!

KAKAK *ehem* ~~Auty~~ Nana sungguh sayang kamu semua!

Guys Will Be Guys

2009-02-12T02:28:00.001+08:00

Disappointing ok!

Like Ive told inaaa.
He's just like other guys.

ok forget it.
Grrr!
Harap muke ajer cute.
Ceh!

Spark!

2009-02-10T22:42:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since Ive been Feeling this way.
Ya Allah.

Ape yang aku buat ni?

Orh, we've started sms :)

Bisa ngak dia ngembalikan keceriaan?
orh his name is Ridz
Something Like Ritz?

Butterflies In Stomach

2009-02-09T17:15:00.003+08:00

Orrrhhh ~
Ku rasakan diriku di awang-awangan.

Betol betol betol.
Mcam aku nak cubit pipi die.
Cute sangat sangat sangat.

Oh No! here I go again!
aku Ngap ko!
slowly and steady.

Cubit cubit cubit.

Damn he's so cute!
*at least to me he is cute*

It's Feb Already

2009-02-04T02:51:00.002+08:00

It's already the month of Feb.
Ive not been blogging for quite sometime.
It's my month. Oh no. Am turning old again this year.
Nothing change so far. Life's been ok ok.

Pretty ok I guess. I got stable income.
Though money is never enuh no matter hoe
much I do OT. Ive this and that to pay.
And to save and worst Bills to pay.

Now I have to save money for my bike.
It's been around 4 months taking the
license and I'm soon going for the final
lap. I m scared... I rather drive! Bike
license tot me to be extra patience and
extra careful on road...
Though am extremely excited about getting
my own ride. I dun want to spend a lot cause
I WILL BE upgrading to Super4 *insyaAllah*
I need perseverance. Totally!
I guess that will be my present for this year
bday. I want my own ride. Ive done some survey.
Tot of getting a Gilera but I think it's kinna
expensive bike to maintain and with me upgrading
after a year of usage it's totally a waste later on.
I shall get just a small bike.
Perhaps a Yamaha Spark 135.
*dun be disappointed inaaa, i still considering to get
scrambler but only Honda XR not KTM!*

Work wise, Still the same, I ve too much OT that I
felt so sian travelling tru and fro' work.
With the economy downturn I doubt I can get a better
job than mine. So for now, just tahan lor ...
Even if I want to find job also hard.

So basically, that's it.
Orh Life so bored.
Relli bored.
Though the contacts from mat police and mat Cd here
and there, I dun think I can get along well with all of
them. It's like no chemistry at all. Boringsungguh.com
Orh well, my time will come.
Coz I noe somehoe somewhere he's there.
The one.
My Only One.

In the mean time ....
I shall get married to my ride.
my only bf.
Orh future ride darling, I lup u.

orh yes, I like this one mamat police at my werkplace.
Mcam aku nak squeeze2 pipi die. cubit2 everything.
Cute giler. Fair and very nice eyes lor.
Cair I tell u. Haha paiseh nye aku ...

Aching

2009-01-15T02:52:00.002+08:00

Body aching all over.
Why issit so? No idea.
Mind going bizzare!

Oww. I hate my new uniform.
Looks more like pilot when in pants.
And Bank Staffs when in skirt.
How can I possibly work like this.
Haiyah! Confuse profession sak!

Next, my best team member kena transfer to SCC!
Appeal also cannot.
Haiz! he's good ok. my 'shifu' also.
He makes working very fun.

Another reasons why I wish to leave my job soon.
But hoe come other agencies didnt rply me ler!
This is so frustrating.
belo~!

and this year, got lots of my colleague and
frends are getting married on June. Hoe come ah?
got special ah June **O62009. Maybe the number
combination. Hmmm I dunoe. Ape2 la!

We are back!

2009-01-10T22:55:00.002+08:00

After so long. We are back.

Just some last week pix.
Didnt took much though.
At least we took photos.

So basically, I m now at work.

I had a great time yesterday with him.
For the first time ever, I drove him.
It was drizzling.
Perhaps the weather always understands our situation.
We ate such a cool looking chocolate prata at Thomson.
Off to a cool place.
Eerie but nice.
Though I dun like the smell of the 'fresh' water.
Seletar Reservoir is a nice place to be with.
I relli miss the hug.
I know I can't hug you like I used to.

If only I could ...
oh well, we both knoe the situation we are in.
I guess that's it.

... oh angin katakan padanya bahawa aku amat merinduinya ...
dan sungguh menginginkan dia kembali ke pangkuan ku ...

... Yet Again ... I've Fail

2009-01-06T15:13:00.003+08:00

2009 isnt as happening as how I wish it will be.

I leave job for 5 days.
But the stupid call frm office kept disturbing my break.
My Next long Leave Will be on Feb.
Which is my Birthday of coz.
OT at work is like forcing it at your face.
Though I love the money *who doesnt*
I m damn not in the mood to work.
I wish I can just work and go home w/o having
to do OT.

Eh belo! robot pon one day leh short circuit jugak!
ape kan lagik org, manusia mcam kite! gong betol.

It's my first OT for this year.
It felt so new.
Am at transist area, with nice room and pc for my usage.
Only once a while, this passenger kept disturbing
my peace. Save the hassle. Stop shopping la. Stop
my trouble to nag nag at you people.

Orh. My nite off last Sun was well spend with my
buayas! It's been a while since my appetite is good.
Superb Good.
The food at Earls Swensens Was Ok ok ..
I Enjoyed the Salad Bar.
Inaaa Enjoyed the bread crumps only.
Wawa Kept Grabbing the grapes.
We Had extra serving of Salad due to the closing.
I paid only $1 for the whole meal.
With airport pass and voucher. Who needs the card to pay!?
HahaAH
heh it's been a while since I met them okek.
No It's been a while since the Buayas gathered
together to eat. Quiet and peacefully w/o any
guys around.

Nite Plan Was HRC.
Further details. Dont bothered. Haha ...

Way back before meeting the busy Buayas.
I went for a drive.
Stop over West Coast Park.
Walk by the usual route.
Sit at the usual place.
The usual view. orh God I miss u.

Until Today, I m bored. I explored the whole
file in my external HDD and view all the pic.
I didnt realize time passed by so fast.
How my buayas style and images change tru time.
heh kekek.

Oh Well.Nevertheless.it's only the 6th day of 2009.
But I dun remember how many time he came in my mind.
Silly me.
I tell you ouch ouch ouch!
Ergh!

hmmm am surfing for any makeover packages for 3 pax.
I intend to go for makeover again.
With who else! Buayas! Wuhoo! I like.
ok da.

Babbling too much. am continuing my work.
Like real. Makan gaji bute ader la!
cish!

Good Bye 2008

2008-12-31T17:21:00.002+08:00

For the Last entry of the year, Just a few more hours before
am leaving the whole 2008 behind me. I remembered the year before
when I was happy, I tot I have found the one. Though you are not
physically with me during the countdown of the year, I could still
remember the message you send me.

Hoping that we are going to have a wonderful exciting and
you promise to make me happy to care and love me. I was full
of joy. Am looking forward for us. But I guess ...

janji hanya lah tinggal janji
takdir tak menyebelahi kita
Sememang nya aku menyayangi
tapi kau terlalu jauh
Tak tercapai nak ku temui
Hanyal tinggal kenangan abadi
Yang akan ku semadi di dlm sanubari.

True enough, 2008 is not a good year for me.
Just 1 heartbreak and It drag me the whole year.

I left my old job even though I was enjoying the
work so much.
I go tru hard financial times with you.
Standing by you even though I my pay isnt that
well off yet.

New job wasnt easy for me either.
I find it hard to adapt during the first
month of my posting. But perhaps this is the
job for me ...

sememang nye disitulah rezeki aku.

I work from morning to noon to night.
Never realizing the days, the months.
I juggle my time with my never done
resolution every year - 2b license.
It wasnt easy. I had bruises, scratches and cuts
all over my hands and leg. I need to be strong.
Am lucky I ve my buayas to cheer me up.
Give me encouragement and push me with the
never-give-up-attitude.

I went for a few getaways this year.
Just to keep my mind off work and him.
I want to have a peace of mind off everything.

Am having a 1 week off since last week.

It's pretty sad to leave 2008.
Cause there's too much sweet memories.
Yet in other hand, there's too much pain which
I wish to let go.

So, happy 2009 to all.
I simply have no new year resolution this year.
Am happy enough to just able to open up
my heart to others.
Am sorry to those hearts I ve break.
I simply cant'...
It's not you. It's just me. Perhaps it's better to leave
me like this.
To the upcoming groom, I hope the best for u.

2009 shall be a better year for me.
With your Guidance. And perseverance.

InsyaAllah.

Wats Work For?

2008-12-15T06:41:00.002+08:00

It's morning. Am blogging at work. Am on Night shift.
Continuing to Morning shift till 3pm. I dunnoe if I can
survive the next 7 hours or so ...

Why am I working so hard for?

Why am I torturing myself until like this?

Can work makes me forget him?

Deteriorating my own health?

I do felt empty. Who doesn't right?

being left just like that? without any ans.

Leaving me helplessly and dying hopelessly without u by my side

I can't I just leave the past and move on?

Why can't I just open up my mind to other stuffs.

Nevertheless ...

I m tired

Relli Tired

I wish to end my misery soon. But when ?

I leave my life and heart to ans for itself.

I close my eyes.

Wishing and hoping that you are always thinking of me...

Orh. I so looking forward for my KL getaway.
I want to spend.
I want to eat.
and Sleep of coz.

Kayangan

2008-12-10T02:05:00.002+08:00

Current position 69!
ok Mepek. Am currently at work first nite shift.

Am watching 'Kayangan' on Youtube.
Teuku Zackry Azwar damn Hot.
Mcam nak pengsan aku tgk die.

Hot giler!
ada tak lelaki yang eligible mcam die...?
Tapi tgk banyak kali mcam Din Jantan Keberet pon ada?
Ahaha ...
aku nak lelaki mcam tu! hmph!
I mean mcam that Teuku.
Bukan mcam Din!

Orh hmmm...
Am so tired.
Tired with my life.
Life that's full of non stop things to do.
Orh I almost going to complete my practical.
Apart from all that, Life felt empty...

Orh Teuku Zacky Azwar!!!

Just Thinking

2008-12-09T04:04:00.002+08:00

Days ve been totally sickening.
Getting pretty bored with life.
Running here and there accommodating myself with my
very tight schedule ...
I wish I can stop the time. Am so tired. Body aching
all over.

Orh. My leave kena cancel. Due to unavoidable circumstances.
I wish my KL leave approve coz I ve bought the tickets.
I have found my covering officer though.
And I ve apply for 2 new jobs. Just trying out luck.
1 to join Inaaa
1 to join Shhhh! cannot tell.

Life felt empty.
Sick of guys who are born liars. Irritated.
Frustrated.

Apart from all that.
I would like to shout out that ...

I HATE MY LIFE NOW.
THANK U VERY NICE.

bye!

Cinta Datang Dan Pergi

2008-12-01T02:48:00.002+08:00

Weekends was awesome. Fully packed schedule.
From Friday to Sunday. Though I was working. I didnt
take any time off or something. Am half sick, having
bad sore throat till my voice sound so sengau and of
coz the blocked nose plays a Huge part of it too...

It was tiring but it was fun. Food at Chalet was nice.
But I realised I didnt ate much. I only managed to eat
only 1 Beef Cheese hotdog. A few bite of toasted garlic
bread. crabsticks. 1 otah. 1 plate of mee. The sinfully
chocolate-coated-shut-up-ur-mouth-kind of cake. Ice cream
cake. And that's all? I think it must be my throat. Lost
the appetite or something.

Orh ya. KL with buayas cancel. Backup plan still pending.
KL with my family confirmed. So There's still KL for me.

Erm What else ah to update?

I bought the Sony Ericsson Xperia X1 phone.
It's sucks relli.
But it's not that bad la.
I like the big screen but the tiny font.
Though it can b adjusted but I prefer it to be small
so that people on MRT wont be able to see wat I type.
Battery survival sucks big time!
cant survive a day especially with heavy duty sms user
like me!
conclusion. forget it. Am still searching for a new
better phone.

Next thing is...

Am bored. and Sleepy.

orh. Look at the time.
oh well. Ciao.

Thank You

2008-11-25T02:35:00.002+08:00

I appreciate that you remember me.
I appreciate that you took the effort to search me in Google.
I appreciate that you email me.
It was nice to be in contact with you.
Never I realized I've known you for 6yrs.
You are now my History.

The truth is I ve got over you.
Way back ago.
Cause I ve got over you after what had happened.
I know that you are my past.
You taught me the meaning of real Love.
You are my first Love.

I don't wish to say more.
I had enough of problem myself.
Am trying to pick myself up after what had happened.
I dont wish to go back to the old days.

I leave you with your life.
Am always here.
Just like I used to be.
I dont want to think of anything else.
You have your life ...
I am sure she will appreciate you much more now.
Give her a chance.
Guide her to the right path.
I will accept your wedding invitation with a open heart.
But I doubt I will be attending it.
I wish you all the best.
Take good care of yourself and she.

Perhaps it's time.

Jika ada jodoh kita, akan bertemu jua akhirnya.
Jangan kau menutup hatimu untuknya
Kerna kau telah menemui seseorang yg bisa menyayangi
dirimu ...

Mungkin dengan menyepikan diri
Kita bisa menghindarkan semua perasaan.

Maybe

2008-11-24T03:53:00.003+08:00

Maybe he's right ...

Follow my instinct

My patience is depleting

Maybe he's right

I should try to get over him

Could this be the time?

The right time ?

I do believe in fate.

But this time it's so unpredictable.

Aint Good

2008-11-23T05:29:00.002+08:00

Life isn't good at All.
Mind's been haywire.
I need to go for another getaway.
Wat's with me?
Ive been strong all along.
Why can't I just go on like I used to.
Why am I still holding on?
So what If I still think of him?
Would he be thinking of me too?
I doubt so ...

I had no idea why I cant get you off my mind.
I tot there's still hope for us the moment
you called me back a month ago.
I waited cause I want to hear explanation from you.
I would accept you even without you explaining to me.
Cause I miss you too much.
I don't care what you've done all I know is that
I need you. I want you back safely.
I was angry no doubt.

Life's like this.
Too much for me to accept.
I am still waiting.

I hate my life now. Thank u.
I really do.

Gimme The Stregth

2008-11-19T01:43:00.002+08:00

Am back from a short get away at Batam.

I tot I can rest there. But my mind was elsewhere.
The moment I step in the ferry I remember him.
The view from the ferry, the moment the ferry
move pass Sentosa from the end to the right end
where he used to work. The clear view of everything.
I could imagine his presence in me. In my soul.
With just closing my eyes and the warmness from the
heat of the sun. I was thinking of him tru out the
whole journey.

How he used to tell me story about his work.
What he see every time he's out in the sea.
How hot it was enduring the sunlight that makes him dark skin.
How the wave and the wind play a part in the route he took
About not able to get reception
Of how nice it felt to feel the breeze blowing on your face

Just everything ...

When I was there.
I remember our plans to go to Batam together.
To go to spa
Try water sports.
Shopping
Enjoy the days with good food especially the ayam penyet.
And spending the time quality time together.
Just the two of us.

But it never happen ...

I had no idea where you are now.
I just hope that you know I miss u every sec.
Hoping that you will be out from your hide-an-
seek-game.
Return me my happiness.
Return me the whole you.
Return me the love and warmness of your hug and
the sincerity of your kiss.
Kiss of love, the pureness from your heart with
your lips touching my forehead.
Simply gave me a silence.

I want you and I need you.

Hoping so much. Praying so much.
Truly am giving up anitime soon ...

Jangan Terlalu Berharap

2008-11-16T04:44:00.004+08:00

Check out the time bebeh!
I am at work. Night Shift and I m off to Batam to rest tomm.
Totally a busy schedule these few days.

Work sucks.
Especially when Your team mate is giving you so much a an
attitude problem.

Went back to New Town Pri. for the Family Bonding Day.
It was fun. Took some pictures of the cute kids
performance.
And meet up all my teachers and kids.
I miss them.
There goes NTPS. New building on the 26th Nov.
Orh yes. They say I lose weight!

errr...

I tot so too coz all my pants are expanding.
Maybe coz stezz at work.
Strezz of everything in fact.
am looking forward to visit them in the new sch!

Arggh!
Orh yes. I want new phone.
Did I mentioned before that My current phone has
cracks at the back due to the bike accident?
hmmm ...

benci la!

orh ya this song!

Lyrics | Ungu - Disini Untukmu lyrics

ouch! pain pain pain

Missing

2008-11-14T10:15:00.002+08:00

It's the mid of November. I realise it's almost the End of
the year. How fast. This month will pass just like that. Ive too
much things going on. My HP calender is full of events to attend.
Juggling work and leisure time.

NTPS Farewell tomm.
Off to Vivo to take the Cake.
Rush to Pasir Ris Inaaa's Family Chalet
Then to night Shift.
Back from night Shift Meet Kakak at Habourfront.
Off to Batam.
Rest. Spa. Shop.
Back on Monday.
Tuesday and Wednesday PM shift.

I managed to slot 1 theory practise on 19th November
before my 2nd PM Shift.
Will top up my BBDC account and continue with my practical.
Perhaps a slot on 20th my off day.
I got RTT on 24th November.
Book another practise slot before the test.

Kak Lyni's Chalet on 29th Nov.
Will Rush there after AM shift.
Not too sure if I want to report for the 2nd AM shift.
Felt like taking OL.

I got 2 KL trip on December.
1 weekend with my buayas and the other one after Chrismas
will be with my family.

Damn it. No more money. Pening noh!
My wound damn ichy to the core. Never eat seafood ok.
But still ichy I wonder if it going to leave a mark
later on when it's heal.

ARGH.
Double shift today.
It's only 10. I got 12hrs more to go.
Relli sleepy.
I wish I got someone to fetch me home.
Am dead tired.
Sleepy Sleepy Sleepy Snoopy.

Aku benci. Aku benci dengan jantan jantan yang aku ada skg.
Good for nothing.
Bwwrggghh benci la.
Solo Susah.
Ada berok pon Susah.
HHMPHPHHH!

I miss Ritz :'(

Accident

2008-11-08T03:08:00.002+08:00

I had accident at bbdc today.
I was flung off my bike during emergency break.
I ve abrasion on my left elbow and now my whole
body aching. A torn right pants. A crack on my HP.
I have no idea what happen to the bike though.
All I know I was flying off and landed on the wet
surface. It was damn painful I shall say. I didnt
cry. But I just tear, holding on to the pain ...

But Ouch. I need hug.

Oh yes. I broke down ysterday before sleeping.
I just cried the moment I look at his pic.
I miss u.

Money-Less

2008-11-05T18:47:00.002+08:00

Argh! Totally broke to the core!
At the same time am very lazy to work.

Doing OT today. I ve 3 more hours to go.
My Pasha Ungu not fetching me from work today
Biasa gak! *yawn*

... Ku tahu ku takkan selalu ada untukmu
Disaat engkau merindukan diriku
Kutahu ku takkan bisa memberikanmu
Waktu yang panjang dalam hidupku ...

hah! ambik ko!

So ape-ape ngan die. Aku da tak kuasa!
Harap muke ensem tapi da married for wat?
Waste time ajer kan!

So aniway

Am waiting for the time to pass.
And I wish I ve the whole time to go bbdc
and proceed on with my practical every
single day.

I cant wait to pass la dey!
Haha
I like I like I like!
Though I DO fall! But it's fun ler!

And I realise that It's almost a month since
he called me. Where he go again?
So am I wrong if am angry with him?
Am I wrong for blaming him for everything?
Am I wrong for NOT being understanding?
Am I stupid to be waiting for you all this while?
Why I cant wake up from my senses?
Why Why Why ...

Coz I realised that no one can replace
you in my heart.
Aku benci Benci Benci!!!
The fact that I might look strong outside,
but am actually crying inside.

Ritz will you come back? :'(

Play The Game

2008-11-04T14:06:00.002+08:00

It's November. Orh it's too fast. I didnt realized that time
have left me too far. I started my year hoping to end things up nicely.
but my wish didnt come true.

Ive made another thing out of my life.

My off day was superb best boncet kenyang day for me.
Ate a lot.
Laugh a lot.
Flirt a lot.
Very the buayas'

I get to noe a someone.
Interesting person.
Definitely cute. Like Pasha Ungu.
But married! HaHaHa ...
but he's interesting.

very the kekasih gelapku!

he said, he's afraid that he might fall in lup
and there will be problem. Problem for me and
big problem for him. HahA ...

AHAH I laugh like hell when he said that.
play the game face the consequences.
Tau plak die takot tersangkot ngan aku.
kwang kwang kwang.

... ku tahu ku takkan selalu ada untukmu
disaat engkau merindu kan diriku ...

Orh tidak! aHAaha
Orh well. nak mandi! nak siap nak go bbdc~!
I lup my kekasih Gelapku! AHAHAH

Short Term or Long Term

2008-10-25T19:05:00.002+08:00

OK I know it's too early to think about getting a bike.
But am halfway tru my practical. And it's progressing fairly good.
Orh I cant wait to get myself my very own new Baby.
I m going berserk looking at this machine.

I want YZF-R125!
my R1 with the 125cc engine. HAHA who say 2b Cannot
ride R1. Cute kan! HAHAH

Expected to be around 12k for first hand.
This exclude my insurance cover (1.5k plus)
and road tax. and carpark. Duit lagik tu.

I give myself till mid of next year!
Let me taste the bit of pain paying.

or else get CBR 150 or Aprilla RS-125

Damn! so bored. at work. Afternoon shift I bought laptop
to work. I on all the ungu songs.
My Indonesian passenger all mistaken me as an Indonesian
girl. HAHA

Also I hate wearing panty hose. It's itchy and it's so uncomfortable
at my butt. I forget to bring my socks and I ve no choice to
wear skirt for duty today.

ARRGGHHHH!
I did my part.
I m still waiting.
Waiting for the sky to drop I guess.
EEEEEEEE geram nye aku.
ok aku horny aku nak hug! AHAHAHA
seriously my brains are not well.

Leave Me Alone

2008-10-24T01:27:00.002+08:00

Am done waiting.
Am I fated to wait all my life.

Sucks.
I wanna go with the disappearing game again.
Perhaps that's the best.

Looking forward for Ungu Concert at Esplanade.
Looking forward for my KL trip with my Buayas'
Orh aku sunnguh mau lari dari realiti hidup.
Namun aku tahu itu tak akan mungkin terjadi.

FCUK!

2008-10-22T01:29:00.002+08:00

ok I ve make my mr pipi cute angry.
Bubbye to him. NEXT ONE PLS!

Enuh Is Enuh

2008-10-22T00:26:00.002+08:00

Am no longer strong.
Am too immune to this game. Am so tired of waiting.

Perhaps it's over.
Real over. And I m moving on.
Though it hurts. And Cant denied it. Am still
hoping and partly waiting...

*hiakdush* eee stop it. He's not worth waiting.

I ve a few lining up! but I like most is the
cute pipi guy. Cute noh! AHAH

ok enuh!~

Kecewa

2008-10-20T00:48:00.002+08:00

Why do u have to treat me like this?

You did it again.
too much hatred in me.

Menunggu dan terus menunggu?
Akhirnya aku yang kecewa lagi ...

Till E End

2008-10-18T02:23:00.002+08:00

I cant take this animore.
My mind is haywire all over again!

AKU BENCI DIPERBUAT SEPERTI GINI.

I hate it so much.

I wish to see him physically in front
of me and hit him badly!

....

which I know it wont happen. Coz even if
I were to hit him, I will end up hugging him
instead. Furthermore my hitting is nothing
when it lands on his chest.

Dear I miss u ... hmph benci!

Sayang Sayang Sayang

2008-10-15T01:55:00.002+08:00

Am still waiting and keep waiting. It seems like it's back
to the start. When are you going to call me !?
When are we going to settle all this ?
It's very dreadful to wait for you.

But this time, I want you to know that am relli angry.
Keeping my ego high up.

But at the same time ...

Saya rindu awak banyak teramat sangat ...

Am watching A walk to remember again.

I relli like this quote:

Love is always patient and kind.
It is never jealous.
Love is never boastful or conceited.
It is never rude or selfish.
It does not take offense and is not resentful.

Which I dont think I fulfilled this.

Ritz can u please call me as soon as possible.
Kau nak buat aku giler lagik mcam selama ni
kau buat ke huh?

Benci!

tapi sayang beb!

Sedih

2008-10-14T05:50:00.000+08:00

I feel so bad .
So bad. Am sorry dear . Am sorry.
Maafkan aku sayang.

...

2008-10-13T22:56:00.002+08:00

Otak aku berceramuk!

Until the time he's going to call and we talks things out,
hati aku akan tetap mcam gini.

I tot I am ready.
I tot that he's no longer important in my life.

AKU TAK SEDAP HATI LA SIAL!!!
BILE MASE KO NAK CALL AKU.
AKU TK TAHAN MCAM NI

Ouch

2008-10-12T22:07:00.002+08:00

I do remember that I once said that

... Sekali aku melangkah pergi,
aku tidak akan pernah menoleh lagi

These days, my left eyes kept twitching,
non stop. It's painful. However someone once
said that it's shows that am looking forward
to meet someone who i miss ...

Which today, I received a call. I didnt expect
him to call me back.

Bagi aku die da tak wujud dari hidup aku.
Aku da sugnguh terluka akibat kamu.

Namum suara mu begitu menenangkan jiwa ini.
Kau adalah penawar duka lara.

Namun hati ini tetap perit terlalu perit.

Maafkan aku sayang.
Jika aku bisa menepis segalanya.

Aku mahu kau membawa ku pergi buat selama nya.

Sayang...
Apakah ertinya aku dalam hidup mu.
I miss u so much...
Maafkan aku ... Maafkan aku ...

Buaya Membuaya Again

2008-10-12T01:58:00.003+08:00

Just listening to this songs when I was to work
today.

Terlalu reflect gue skg ini

Kaum Hawa - Kris Dayanti

Hampir saja aku meragukan semua
ragu apa? aku bisa bahagia
denganmu sayang ternyata ku senang

namun kau tak sendiri ada dirinya
kita saling mencinta tak ingin putus
kita ciptakan cinta yang terlarang

ku digauli rasa salah
namun tak inginku hentikan
bersamamu aku merasaku pantas bahagia

dosa itu di depan mataku menyakiti kaum hawa
dia yang tlah lama denganmu

dan masih denganmu uh..masih saja denganmu
namun kau tak sendiri ada dirinya
kita saling mencinta tak ingin putus
kita ciptakan cinta yang terlarang oh..

ku digauli rasa salah
namun tak inginku hentikan
bersamamu aku merasa
aku juga pantas bahagia

ku tak ingin jadi isteri yang muda
ku juga tak mahu kau lepas dia
biar saja aku yang pergi kasih
semoga kau bahagia

it's just too much.
too much.

4 days of night shift coming up.
Wuhoo! aku giler

memBUAYA

2008-10-09T17:03:00.002+08:00

I dunoe what's with the nick la eh...
Aku sungguh capek banget. Terlalu.

Orh I ve started with my practical.
I like !!!
Not bad. I can proceed with the next practical
in just 1 try. Not that hard after all. I think
it's much more easier than driving la dey.
But I dunoe. It's too early to say it. Maybe we'll
just see.

Orh yah. Dont sleep when riding. Which I actually did la.
Who asked me to go practical after night shift.
Kan da stone atas moto! AHHAHA

All I can say ... I LOVE RIDING.
now am like some kind of minah bringing helmet all over
the world.
Luckly K*nekGatal Din came and fetch me from BBDC yesterday.
Send me home after dinner.
Am so shagged to the core.

Ive such an offer the past few days.
Another married guy dare to ask for a scandal.
Idiot.
His wife is an ICA officer at T1 la dey.
Ader ajer passport melayang to T2. HAHAH

aku giler aku giler aku giler!!!

da back to work.
See this married mamat call aku lagik!
ahahha

memBUAYA abis...

2008-10-05T18:39:00.002+08:00

Sememangnye aku penat jalan raya.
I think Ive cleared all the houses with mum and dad
this year. Tak sia-sia lah aku ambik leave this 2 days.
Only left with pak ngah house at Jurong NTI and Mak dak
house at Toh Guan.

After tomm, am goin to be on night shift. I ve 2 theory
class to attend and my first practical is on Wed! OMG
aku takot la dey! Ive read the practical book, rather
easy though. I think. I will try the practise question
tomm. I believe I can do it. So perhaps in 1 year time
I can choose a bike on my own.

. Gilera Runner
. Honda SP
. Yamaha R125
. Kawasaki KR
. Perhaps a scrambler?

I ve some in mind. But I need motivation though. If others
can do it. So can I.

But am relli broke due to this.

Oh well, Raya pic for this year.
I wore back the same baju from last year raya.

dlm hatiku, keinginanku sekarang ini adalah aku ingin halal bagimu ...
... yang bisa kau seka air matanya, kau belai rambutnya dan kau kecup keningnya

Sungguhtouching.com

ada tak lelaki yang bleh bagi aku mcam gini.
actually ader, that mat duda ... he's so sweet la dey

Scarp It

2008-10-04T02:27:00.002+08:00

Firstly, Am now a student of BBDC once again!
Am I m determined to pass my 2b License in the
shortest time possible. Therefore am fcuking going
to sacrifice my sleep to go BBDC to do my practice.
so Home work BBDC. BBDC work Home. Something like that

Secondly, I dont feel the raya mood at all.

Thirdly, I ve start going out late nite with guys.
which means I m starting to go out with jerks again.

Lastly, Am so bored taking long leave.
Regret to the core
But who cares, it's my time off aniway.

bwrgggh am hungry la dey at this time

2008-10-02T00:29:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya too all my friends. Am sorry if I didnt
managed to send out lots2 of sms to wish u people. Too confuse already.
I did managed to celebrate Raya this year. However I have to report
to work at 3pm. I try to take time off and go at 7pm or 8am, however
my irritating TL for the day seems to be rather not happy with it.
Am relli fed up with it... Disappointed coz I didnt get to meet my
other relatives from my dad's side ...
Another afternoon shift tomm and I m off from work for 3 days straight.
Friday am going to register my 2b license and I can start booking for
my theory and practical.

Raya is so boring this year.
It's so hurting thinking that if we were still together we would be 1 on
this 21.

Tragedi Oktober abis ...

after so long here's a pic for the first day raya.
Suddenly I realize that I look like some sesat
Japanese doll girl. I think the make up la.

Mission

2008-09-28T18:34:00.003+08:00

Seriously no mood to work today.
2 night shift coming up. I ve yet to enroll for my
Class 2b. Ive done it online though. Just need to
go down bbdc and do the confirmation. Pay the necessary
things and done. Ive bought myself a simple helmet.
good deal Damn cheap.

Am so fucking irritated of having to ask for the car to
go out. I rather take my 2b license. Pass it and get
myself a bike. Perhaps if am financially ok, I would be
getting myself a weekend car. I am so fucking irritated.
I dont care! hmph!

No mood la nak go work later. Nak go budget terminal to
get my stupid pocket book sign for the whole month of
June. grrrr

Once bitten Twice Shy

2008-09-26T21:13:00.002+08:00

Saya rindu sama mat tattoo aku!

Expected

2008-09-23T15:52:00.003+08:00

Again ... Am blogging at work.
I would like to say that I m bored with work.
Sian very the sian.

This Indian Traders bisa aja buat aku gila!
kecik kecik tak nak mampos.
Da tue menyusah kan keje aku! bodo!

Ive received bad news from my mentor,
he's will be posted to Woodlands W.E.F next month.
EEee Oh No. Alahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!
Tak best nye. :(

it's more than 5 hours to end work. Doing double shift
again. And tomm. However Ive donated my OT to my
collegue. Kecian budak nak kahwin nak cari duit
so aku bagi la OT aku kat die.
Lagipon aku Penat la bodo !!!

It's 1 week to raya.
Did i mentioned that am not in the mood to raya.
Wuek!
Sedih~ :'(
Sememang nye aku sedih raya tahun ni.
Teramat sedih sangat.

*selit lagu raya Aishah - pulanglah*

Am just wondering why my life have been going downwards
these few month...
BENCI AH

Am good

2008-09-21T22:28:00.003+08:00

Ive been away for quite sometime. It's been good.
I guess I ve overcome all my troubles. I ve move on and I
know nothing is impossible.

Am back to 1. not going out with anyone right now. Am just a
solo-single-career-minded girl.

Work at Terminal 2 ve been fine. Totally fine. Fun at times.
Irritating at the same time. Fed up at one time. Sick of doing
the same thing again and again. Suddenly I realize that I ve been
working for 4 months. Pay is definitely damn great. Never been
better with for money wise.

I guess I gain some and I lose some. And Here I suppose Ive lose
something. Ive gain a good job prospect, money and experience.

Personal wise, Ive been going out with my own team-mate brother
all along. As in go out watch movie, dinner and hang out. That's
all. Not that go out go out kind of thing
Scary. This team member of mine freak out when he knows
about it. But it's good. I can 'korek' more from the bro. So both
cannot hide from me. But why must I know the devil version of his kind.
Both of them are no alike at all, apart from the similar face. My team
mate damn tall, fine built body, fair, a person with few words,
mature yet selekeh at times and have cartoon stern voice. Whereas
his brother is short, skinny kering body, damn tanned, talks
superb a lot, and extreme noty-ness. What a small world...

Apart from all this, I miss west coast park. I miss hanging out there
late nite. I miss talking chatting non stop with my fellow buayas'
Just sitting there, staring at the endless view of the horizon, small
tiny blinking lights from ships. WCP have been the place for us to
cry out our hearts, our misery, where we ve cried. we ve experience
love and where all of our laughter ve been hear. I miss mee kuah,
maggi goreng and prata cheese over at clementi road. I just miss the
old times. I guess my work have taken too much of my time.

Raya is just a few days away. I didnt bought any new clothing for
this year. Except for my bling bling heels which cost me $80 and I
paid it like it's nothing. For now, that's the most expensive things
which I ve ever bought for myself that is to be worn on the freaking
FEET! AM on the PM shift for the first day of raya. I guess no going
house visiting for the first day. Luckily, the nite before raya is
my nite off, so I ve the whole day to clean up my bears. Change my
bed linen, curtains and pillows. This applies to the whole house as
well. Ive sponsored mum this year curtains at ikea.

Alhamdullilah. I guess life's ok right now.

Owh yea. I ve myself a fujitsu Laptop at Comex show recently.
And yea I ve a full list of items to buy
- LV Damier Canvas Trésor wallet and a whole other sets of LV bags
- Touch screen phone either Samsung Omnia or iphone
- of coz my very own weekendz plated car!

gee am bored at work. Nite shift is so bored.
Reportting off at 8am tomm and reporting at HQ at 4pm.
Stupid. I die die going to hail the cab. Gila or wat.
I cant wake up. Comfirm!

So yea.

Questions: Issit ok if I start going out with a divorced guy
with 1 kid?
Issit ok if I am serious with a guy who have his body covered
with tattoo?

I know my buayas going to kill me if I were to be serious with
any one of them. Haha ...

Hidup Buaya!

*wat a long entry*

Its been a while

2008-07-21T20:13:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since I wrote something in here.
I've been thinking. I might close my blog after years of
writing here. I wish I can erase and delete off all the
memories in my brain as well.

Perhaps I should just take a step back and pretend am fine.

But in other hand, am simply having my downturn period.
I lost everything.

And am simply feeling really depressed lately.

Appetite ve been down. I lost the motivation to go on.
Am just indulging myself with the work that I currently
hates. Am so tired ...

Till then, this blog shall remain silence for now.

PSP!!!

2008-07-12T21:26:00.002+08:00

AKU ORANG KAYA TODAY.
DAN AKU TEROS JADIK MISKIN TODAY AFTER
SETTLING HALF OF MY DEBT FROM MY DAD.
1K to them. Ive not set aside $ for Ezlink
card. $ for saving. $ for PSP. $ for spending.
I think by then Am left with the same old
value in the bank again.

Just came back from dinner and walk walk at Tao
payoh Central. PSP at Toa Payoh is around $348 max.
Why is the one at Clementi is so Cheap. It's only
$280 full set with 4GB memory stick. PSP Slim ok.
The shop is close tomm. Hmph Cannot buy. Monday
work from morning till night. Shop Close again.
I guess am only able to grab it on Tuesday.

Tuesday have to put aside $100 for my facial and
full body massage. Just now treat my parents makan
at Simpang bedok for $50. Now am wondering how much
left Ive.

$ for Ritz birthday present lagik.
Arrgghh.

RITZ UR THE MOST SELF-FISH BERG THAT IVE EVER
MET. CEPAT BALIK LA SETAN! KO MATI KAT LAUT
PON AKU TAK TAHU! BLEH TAK ON THE PHONE BODO.
AKU GILER KALAU KO UAT AKU MCAM NI. CEPAT BALIK
CEPAT BALIK LA BABI!

Again and Again

2008-07-11T03:24:00.003+08:00

My Pay going to be credited to my account soon.
Ive got my payslip.
Power dok this time aku dapat pay.
2 bulan gaji. And stupid CPF have to cut so much.
Or else I take home almost 3k plus.
Syookk....

I spend a lot with sharifah last night after work.
Spend almost 100 each for Taxi fare and Food.
We ate at Secret Receipe. 1 dish each plus 1 lasange
to be shared. Ate Ben & Jerry's Ice cream for dessert.
Took the Cable car. Stop over at Altivo.
Had a drink over at Mount Faber.
Return back tru' Cable Car and took the Cab Home.
Simply a good night out.
Best Banget.
I want to hang out at Altivo again.
Jom Buayas?

Night shift tonite.
Report off at 8am.
Report at Tanjong Pagar at 3pm.
I m wondering if am going to have enough sleep later.

Perot so boncet.
Just ate mcspicy burger. Am just too hungry.
Left dear for almost a week plus.
I hate his work.
I hate it when he have to leave me in Sg
and I hate it when he off his phone either
theres no reception or he never bring his
charger. Am so so so pissed.

Am watching Heart again.
And am just thinking, Would you choose your lover
or your best friend? in whichever situation it is.
Which do you going to choose? hmmmmmmmmm

Bwwrrgghh. Am missing dear. I wondered if
he safe? if he's alive? is he's ok?
Now this is wat I call Love sick.

and Ive yet to plan the event for his bday.
worst! wat to get for his bday?
Adidas watch? Okley Spec? Topman Top?
Same PSP for me and him? HMmmmmm
hmph!

Tagged!

2008-07-08T17:34:00.002+08:00

Working Morning shift is so syiok yet very sleepy.
Am home. Fresh and still sleepy.
I want to sleep early tonite so I better don't
nap now. For now let me try to do this tagged by my
dear shazzy.

1)How many children do you want ?
Err. the more the better. Max 4

2)Where would you go if someone sponsors you an air ticket ?
Either Mauritius or Maldives.
Sponsor accommodation skali ah pls!

3)Whats your fav thing to do ?
Sleeping. Driving with no direction plan. Gazing at the sea
horizon.

4)Do you think money can buy happiness ?
Never. Only Taufik can buy me happiness.
Waakkaka

5)What is your Perfect Date?
Perfect date would be when I feel my heart
goes dug dug dug even after everything is
over.

6)Have you ever been regretted in life ?
All the time

7)What are you afraid to lose ?
My PC - all my electronic gadgets and my dear ritz :(

8)If you win 1 million, what would you do ?
Get married with ritz! HAHA what the hell!

9)What do you dream of doing in the future ?
Full time Housewife to ritz! HAHAH *puke*

10)What's your hobby?
Eh this question redundant ah. See Question 3!

11)What makes me happy ?
When talk mepek & Eat & Eat with my buayas.
And spending the whole night with ritz watching
stars by the beach.

12)What type of person do you hate most ?
Guys PMS. Like the fellow colleague of mine today.
I now declare him beruang PMS

13)If you have a superpower what could it be ?
Take away father's day to those guys who tried
to be 'funny' with me. Heh heh heh

14)Which season do you like ?
Hibernating season. TDOOOOO!

15)What do you think is the most important thing in your life ?
My HP. My PC. My Family. My Buayas. My Dear Ritz

16)If you have a bf, would you die with him ?
Errr...die no. But I might end up at IMH.

17)Who was the last person who hugged you ?
Err... Ritz. That guy who wants to court me,
almost want to hugged me but was too scared to
do so cause I shouted at him. HAHA SIAL

18)What is the thing you want it badly now ?
Ritz and my very own car

19)Whom are you close to ?
My Buayas

20)Who is person deeply in your heart ?
My Buayas, Ajib, Azhar, Azahar & Ritz.
AND TAUFIK BATISAH

Instructions:Remove one question from above and add in your personal question.Make it a total of 20 question then tag 8 ppl in your list.List them out at the end of this post.Notify he/she through your tagboard =)

I go no time to go tagged people one by one on their
tagboard.
But whoever who reads this is TAGGED. ah penat da bye

Guys-PMS

2008-07-08T12:53:00.002+08:00

At work. One of my guy Colleague having
PMS. Period! Guys also have period of their own.
Watever... Bwwrrggh. Malas nak Layan.

I hate wearing panty hose. Eerrrkk

Am sleepy. Yet Bored. I feel like goin for manicure.
Shasha finish at 2pm. I finishing at 3pm. Lerr...

I want to sleep. Eee boring nye today.

My eye Candy, Ho is on MC. Boring nye part II.

Ape2 la

Ho Ho Ho

2008-07-07T00:26:00.002+08:00

If you want to find a job that is to argue with
people everyday. Then go apply my job. Then You can Argue
with passenger everyday yet you have the law to back you
up. HaHa

Oh yesh. My CCO blackmail me with all the pic that he
printed at AM. haha ... he end up showing people those
pic. Wahlau!

Suddenly I become so popular ... Kecoh beb. Identity
semua da terexpose.

And this resulted in match making at work. *smack head*
Ape kate korang buat kan Ta'aruf skali
for aku. Kan bagos!
Siao! HAHAH

Oh ya shazzy, tagged ko nanti aku buat. Aku penat!
YAHOO! TODAY DA OFF! after 2 week working straight!